forum Anyone who just needs a place to release cuz of daily tasks and life

Started September 08, 2023 by @CharlieTheSlayer fastfood

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hello

ever just try to fall asleep and your mind is like
😎hey
😎hey remember when you were so much happier and you were in love and you didnt have a period or bitchy hormones and your family had money and time so you could see your friends all the time and your parents didnt drink and you had a guy who loved you and you didnt hate yourself and you had hope for a cool future and you were so 🤩blissfully ignorant🤩 of everything wrong with your generation??
😎cause I remember, buddy. I remember everything. and its all gone now, never to return, cause you were a dumb child who couldn't hold on to the one person who made you so happy. whats that? you shouldn't be thinking like this cause its not healthy? oh but buddy, there isn't anything else to think of, just like there isnt anything else to do beside rot your pathetic little brain out bingeing shows and Pinterest.
😎hey why are you such a cold shouldered bitch? why are you such a little piss-and-vinegar, cold shouldered bitch? you're gonna die alone and hated at a young age with a bottle in your hand, you know.

and then you try to tell yourself that its not good to think that way, and you try to find something else to fall asleep to but its all
😎hey the girls on drill team all hate your guts, they're just nicer people who are also fake people who can pretend to tolerate you. Oh, and the people at WW, they also dont like you. they just pretend to be nice, and say sweet things, to make you feel a little better so you'll stop being a dramatic little bitch and maybe you'll leave them alone.
😎hey remember when he told you he loved you? yeah he was just a silly, misguided kid then, just like you. he never wants to see you now, even though you cant go one hour without thinking of him. he doesnt care for you, probably never did. he only thought he liked you cause you were the only girl there and you spent so many hours together.
😎hey. dont forget all of it. you need to feel the physical pain of being a burden to those who have to put up with you. you have to feel the feeling of your ribs contracting around your heart, shredding it so that maybe it'll stop beating.

Are u ok????

ever just try to fall asleep and your mind is like
😎hey
😎hey remember when you were so much happier and you were in love and you didnt have a period or bitchy hormones and your family had money and time so you could see your friends all the time and your parents didnt drink and you had a guy who loved you and you didnt hate yourself and you had hope for a cool future and you were so 🤩blissfully ignorant🤩 of everything wrong with your generation??
😎cause I remember, buddy. I remember everything. and its all gone now, never to return, cause you were a dumb child who couldn't hold on to the one person who made you so happy. whats that? you shouldn't be thinking like this cause its not healthy? oh but buddy, there isn't anything else to think of, just like there isnt anything else to do beside rot your pathetic little brain out bingeing shows and Pinterest.
😎hey why are you such a cold shouldered bitch? why are you such a little piss-and-vinegar, cold shouldered bitch? you're gonna die alone and hated at a young age with a bottle in your hand, you know.

and then you try to tell yourself that its not good to think that way, and you try to find something else to fall asleep to but its all
😎hey the girls on drill team all hate your guts, they're just nicer people who are also fake people who can pretend to tolerate you. Oh, and the people at WW, they also dont like you. they just pretend to be nice, and say sweet things, to make you feel a little better so you'll stop being a dramatic little bitch and maybe you'll leave them alone.
😎hey remember when he told you he loved you? yeah he was just a silly, misguided kid then, just like you. he never wants to see you now, even though you cant go one hour without thinking of him. he doesnt care for you, probably never did. he only thought he liked you cause you were the only girl there and you spent so many hours together.
😎hey. dont forget all of it. you need to feel the physical pain of being a burden to those who have to put up with you. you have to feel the feeling of your ribs contracting around your heart, shredding it so that maybe it'll stop beating.

Are u ok????

take a wild guess
but ye, im 😎✨fine✨😎

damn im sorry for putting everyone through reading all that… that was rather dramatic of me.

Dude I woke up this morning so pissed for absolutely no reason. And then my friends were wondering why I wasn't at school yesterday and I didn't want to talk about it because my counseling didn't go well and was just utterly draining. Then I got dead named like 5 fucking times. I'm trying not to cry in homeroom right now and I just hate the world today.

poor kitty :(

I just need a really long, really hard, really felt hug from any of three specific people; j, m or my sister. im falling apart and only they can keep me together

does anyone else just feel like they're full of scribble?
right now, I dont have organs or brain matter, im filled with scribbles. im sad, im mad, im restless, I desperately want to sleep. I want to accomplish great things, I want to die. the scribbles fill my head and swarm my chest with clouds of acid, so loud in the silence of my isolation.

does anyone else just feel like they're full of scribble?
right now, I dont have organs or brain matter, im filled with scribbles. im sad, im mad, im restless, I desperately want to sleep. I want to accomplish great things, I want to die. the scribbles fill my head and swarm my chest with clouds of acid, so loud in the silence of my isolation.

that's literally me

does anyone else just feel like they're full of scribble?
right now, I dont have organs or brain matter, im filled with scribbles. im sad, im mad, im restless, I desperately want to sleep. I want to accomplish great things, I want to die. the scribbles fill my head and swarm my chest with clouds of acid, so loud in the silence of my isolation.

that's literally me

🙃

i would be a good gf, i just need a lil crumb of support with my problems and i would literally return it tenfold without trying. why cant i have a sweet lil dumbass bf who would say mean things with a smile right back at me when i do that to him and would be a little bullying cause i need that to bounce off of, but would be super gentle and sweet when i have a hard time, and has bad pickup lines and lame dirty jokes and would make me laugh when im trying to be serious or pay attention to somethin else and would point to the weirdest looking bugs and fish and say 'thats ones you' but then take me to a restaurant and tell me he loves me more than garlic bread and that im more beautiful than all the stars, and tickle me when im in a good mood and snuggle me when im in a bad mood and he'll carry me around if i ask him to, or tell him not to (cause i dont really mean it) and yeet me into a bed or on a trampline or in a pool even though im yelling, but he knows im not really mad mad cause im still smiling at him and he wouldnt give me flowers, he would throw them at me or place them silently on my head, and yeah basically my best friend but as a tall, less religious boy 😭 and he'd make out whenever or steal lil smooches and randomly rest his head or arms on my head (cause i classify as 'not tall') and have longish hair and likes music and has a dumb sense of humor and calls me nicknames but made-up ones that sound super strange to other ppl but i love them
but also, me as a girlfriend;
i would do all of the above to him and more. id make mean jokes unless i realize it actually hurt his feelings, then apologize profusely because i make lots of mean jokes, but i never mean any of them and i ddont want to hurt anyone. id call him sweet nicknames like babe and sweetie and honey sarcastically, then call him 'love' and 'my love' and 'garlic bread' in all seriousness and affection. and i would make food that isnt very good, but id try my best and put my heart into it if it was food he liked. and i would learn all the words to all him favorite songs, because singing is a form of expressing love, both for people and the song being sung, to me. i would learn songs on the guitar that he likes. and i would drive us to random dates and places and teach him how to use chopsticks and make sarcastic sexual jokes about everything. and i would be clingy and goofy, exaggeratedly sad when he has to go somewhere, fake weeping when he says fake mean things. id be the "smol an' chaotic" of the two of us, until i get tired and then id be either the chill one or over-the-top wild child. id tackle him, and push him over, and laugh until my face hurt and my stomach muscles get sore. id say something bitchy and rude, then give him a kiss and tell him that his eyes are my favorite color other than red, then say something else mean while grinning all the way up to my eyes. id make references he wouldd get, then teach him references i would get. id FORCE HIM AT FORKPOINT TO WATCH MURDER DRONES WITH ME. cause i love MD.🥰. id take him to my house, and tell him about my horses, and we'd lay in the fiddlehead ferns at the bottom of my property and watch the clouds scudding across the sky. id show hm favorite books, and read all of his favorite books.
IM LONELY AND SAD AGAIN DAMMIT😭

Just minor issues with school and my "weird" biology. Or family…

My mom works, and I get told that she's trying to provide for me, yet she gets home sometimes early drunk. Her boyfriend calls me a mistake or a freak of nature being born with both parts my mom brought it up drunk or buzzed. I cook myself a grilled cheese her boyfriend got mad at me for talking too much about Greek myths. Even when I cried and screamed in fear when he honked his horn, My mom once left with the other set of keys so I had to stay at the nice old lady next door until she came home. I love my mom since she stayed but I wished she'd spend more time with me like we used to. When she bought me that Greek myth book to read when she left to talk to some men I was 9 at that time I still got the book.