forum Anyone else here with anxiety, depression, agitation, etc on here too?

Started May 10, 2018 by @Neon_Gravestones_Try_To_Call_For_My_Bones-(It's MK)

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ok ive been thinking which honestly let me tell you, worst decision ive ever made, thinking, but ive been thinking and the best way to describe anxiety for me at least is like

so youre standing in front of this huge wave that is literally about to crash down and kill everything and everyone, right? everyone is screaming and running to safety. everyone but you. youre just standing there, looking up at the wave and knowing KNOWING that it will kill you but you cant move. you just stand there, stuck in the sand because of some twist of fate (which, i might add, is NOT your fault, its ok to be stuck, guys, its not your fault) and you. just. cant. move. and sometimes, sometimes you take a step. not away from the wave, no, but towards it. and a lot of you, the part that is scared of moving, of leaving all you have ever known, being stuck in this sand, says, "this is an improvement." and you believe it. but theres a tiny whisper going, "no no no this is wrong this is wrong" and that just hurts and adds to the confusion and the screaming and the torture going on inside your head, but its there, and its practically useless. and then youre standing so close to the wave you can reach out and tough it, this beast that will kill you, and you realize what youve done but you cant move because youve stepped so far into the wet sand because your own goddamn mind convinced you it was right, its pulling you down and you cant take a step, forwards or backwards and the only thing left to do is cry, but not for long because you cant anymore you cant summon the tears after crushing them away for years of your life and youre left just standing there on the beach while the world screams around you and the wave so close you can almost feel the water suffocating you as your own mind finishes the same task.

anyways after that tedious paragraph you might need something lighthearted so go look at some vine compilations for some superficial happiness

Yes

Vines give me life

I'm not sure how to tell people that I might be lesbian. I'm not quite sure myself, but I've had a lot of girl crushes and no boy crushes so….

Well I haven't had any boy crushes iether, but I do know that females tend to be attracted to other females at first then they are to boys. But mostly because they feel more comfortable and safe with a female then they would with a male, it's just instincts. Or they see something in a female that they would want in a perspective partner.

Sorry guys, I was really sick again, but I'm back now and can be online once again!

@The_Anime_Addict_That's_High_On_Kawaii that would make sense because I've had crushes on guys, but I have no desire to go out with them or anything, and I've like a few girls, but idk if it was a crush or just thinking they were pretty/prettier than me/or just pretty in general…?

Yeah, just because we are the the same sex doesn't mean we are blind. Like, DAMMMMM there are some hot girls out there! We notice when they are pretty.

Exactly!! But we degrade others of our same sex because… well… I don't really know why we do that. Either way though, we shouldn't degrade them because that just makes things worse

Do we do that?

Hi, I read the title. I am here cuz well yeah, anxiety+depression

Wow join the club bro

I'm not sure how to tell people that I might be lesbian. I'm not quite sure myself, but I've had a lot of girl crushes and no boy crushes so….

Honestly same

Do we do that?

Some of us do…

Hm interesting

MK it's because of internalized misogyny
we are socialized to think being a girl is a bad thing
so we degrade others who act like girls because we think that they shouldnt be

Ok techically I never got diganosed or took a test, but EVERY SINCE test I took online said i had extremely severe anxiety and severe depression…….soooooo yeah.

@AmericasFavoriteFightingFrenchGirl_LAFFETTE! That's alright, I never technically got diagnosed at first either, but my parents looked it up online and apparently I have all the signs of depression and anxiety so they took me to a therapist who didn't do anything to help me so I started refusing to go and I started getting really bad migraines due to stress and anxiety so they finally took me to the doctor who recently confirmed it… sooooooo, yeah…

@actualdragon that is true, and a lot of that is brought on by guys who call other guys demoralizing names that have to do with being a girl and they make those kinds on comments to us as well. You have no idea how many guys said crap to me like, "Wow, are you on your period or something?" as a way ot 'explain' my anger with them. I've actually started responding with, "I woke up in a pool of blood, I suggest you shut up before I end your day the same way." This is why I have no friends, I'm too mean XD XD

Exactly!! But we degrade others of our same sex because… well… I don't really know why we do that. Either way though, we shouldn't degrade them because that just makes things worse

I think we do that sometimes because we are either envious of what another girl has or jealous of her traits. We kind of see another super super pretty girl as a threat. But I'm not saying we don't at all the time!

Wow I have never experienced this feeling is that weird?

Wow I have never experienced this feeling is that weird?

Same here tbh

No, it's not weird at all :)

phew okay….I saw this really pretty girl at a convention the other day and we had a really nice conversation

I've felt jealousy in other ways though, because I have a very low self esteem

Everyone is so damn smart lol. I'm just kinda chillin' letting the meds take their toll…