"Tell me ag-again about the –the sea."
The kid's eyes glistened as he sat curled up next to me, his arms around my free hand. I was almost annoyed. I needed to finish this essay before tomorrow's paper was printed. It was imperative that I… but no. His eyes were far too bright, far too gray. I couldn't ignore him. I finished the word I was writing, then lowered my pen down, my lips puckering. "The sea, hijo?"
"Y-yeah," he said, "and then the bun –bun –bunnies. I love the sea. And the bunnies." He squeezed my arm tighter.
I sat back, staring up at the dirt ceiling of our apartment. Condensation slid down the exposed pipes and dripped onto our feet. It was from there I gained my inspiration. "The sea, Mitsy, is like that water right there. See it?"
"Yeah!" he said again, wiggling his toes against the damp floor. "Wet."
"That's right." I smiled a tight lipped smile at him. "Except there's much more of it. Gallons of it. Tons of it."
Mitsig shook his head, his curls flying into his face. "Like a bath?"
"Not…quite," I replied. "More like millions and millions of baths."
"That's imposs-possible. There aren't a million bath tubs."
Literal, again. The kid was always literal. He took everything so seriously. I gave up trying to explain the size, shifting gears towards the things he would like. I explained the feeling you felt when the salty drops reached your tongue, or the smell of the sea mist against your face, or the squelchy noise your shoes made when you walk across the sand. He drank it all in, begging for more until I exhausted my knowledge.
"And bunnies?" he demanded after I finished. He didn't care that I was working. He just wanted to hear me speak. I hoped he'd fall asleep soon.
"Yeah, well, bunnies and oceans aren't seen together too often." I yawned, leaning back and cuddling him closer to my chest. "Bunnies live in the woods. They hop around and eat carrots. And they, uh, I don't know. Sleep."
At the word "sleep", I realized his eyes were closed. I breathed a silent sigh of relief. I could finally finish my work. But my hand didn't reach for the pen immediately. I studied the kid's face instead, my eyes trailing over his long lashes, his opened mouth, the drool dribbling out the side. I watched him sleep and suddenly felt like kicking myself. I acted like I knew everything for his sake, but really? I don't know what a damn bunny looks like. I've never felt the sea mist on my face. I've never seen the sun. Hell, I've hardly seen those UV lamps in the Lower World.
But the kid nuzzled his face into my shoulder and I decided I wasn't too awful. He was happy. If he dreamed of bunnies and oceans tonight, then maybe tomorrow's darkness and dragons would be easier to bare.
I didn't pick my pen back up that night.