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@KawaiiCuteness003

Is there someone who is willing to read a story I've been working on? I feel like if I had some criticism from someone I don't really know it would help a lot :)

@heeey-bitchhhhhhhhhhh

I found this while considering posting tiny bits of my dumb stories (about my favorite band because that's the only fandom I have aside from Harry Potter), and yes, I am interested in reading it, if you're still willing to post.

@KawaiiCuteness003

So here’s the main idea

So
Its about these two girls named Ashlynn and Crescent who bump into each other at a library and a book falls from the shelf next to them, and they’re both holding it, and as they read the first words on a page marked ‘Harry Potter’, pages fly around them and then they find themselves in the maze from the Goblet of Fire but it’s the book scene, not the movie scene, and they bump into Harry and he helps them get out and then they go to a different page named ‘The Selection’ and in the middle of all the girls getting ready to meet the prince and they realize every time they read off a page with the title of a book or show/movie it transports them to that show/movie or book

@heeey-bitchhhhhhhhhhh

I love that idea and you had me even more interested with the Harry Potter bit (Potterhead and ARMY, that's all I am. I'm trying to get into Stray Kids, though. Trying… Haha, I love how uncultured I am…) Also, if I may, could I show you a one shot in progress? Well, if you'll read over ten minutes' worth of writing based off of my life but replace the people in my life with idols. I don't know… I'm too nervous to actually share it on a forum here.

@heeey-bitchhhhhhhhhhh

The one shot itself is relevant to why I wasn't online… I mean, things happened, and my girlfriend should've been back two days ago… Anyways, here's that mess. It is just a Yoonkook one shot (my friend helped with the portrayals) in Yoongi's point of view (well, technically mine, as this entire one shot is just writing my own life drama into a BTS story).

The school bell rings, signaling the end of the final class of the day. All that's left is the thirty minute study hall given to the entire school. Seeing as I don't have anything left to do, I just head off to where I'm supposed to, my stuff in my arms. As I walk down the halls, I find Jungkook standing there, waiting for me, as per usual. I start a small conversation with him like any other day before we go our separate ways.

Upon walking into my classroom, I sit in my seat and open my laptop. With nothing else to do, I might as well talk to Jungkook online and work on a project of mine if I can figure out what to make it about. It's basically what I do in this free period instead of schoolwork since I never have any to do. Besides, the school doesn't seem to mind, so I might as well. It's either that or I sleep, anyway.

Aside from messaging Jungkook and trying to work on a project, I'm also chatting on another forum on the site where I'm talking to Jungkook. I hate talking face-to-face, but talking to people who understand me online is just fine. Online is where a lot of my friends are from, anyway. I'm not really active on the forum anymore, but Jungkook's on there, so I might as well talk to him there, too.

Then I notice how Jungkook keeps replying to that forum but not our messages. This confuses me. Is he ignoring me? Is he finding them more important than me? I hate the thought of those possibilities, but it's sadly seeming like he might actually be ignoring me, his boyfriend, for random people online.

I start to feel anger and annoyance consume me. I try to shrug the thoughts off, trying to find a reasonable explanation, but I can't. I would drown out my thoughts with music, but my earbuds are broken and all of the music is blocked anyway. Of course it's like this when I need it… I guess I'll just have to endure this and hopefully not let this get the better of me.

As time goes on, I'm not sure why I keep refreshing. I know that Jungkook keeps replying to that forum but not to me, so why do I keep refreshing in hopes that he will message me back? All I'm doing is fueling my anger from seeing the amount of replies going into the forum and how many are from Jungkook.

Near the end of the day, I simply give up on this. I groan in frustration and shut my laptop. My anger towards Jungkook for presumably ignoring me and my jealousy towards all of the people who he was putting attention towards this entire time is becoming too much for me to handle. I need to calm down before I snap, but the bell rings in two minutes. Once it rings, I will be with Jungkook, and if I'm not calm, I could make some horrible decisions.

I try everything to calm myself down in two minutes. Oh, how I wish that music was accessible at a time like this. I guess this school just wants me to suffer, and honestly, I'm not surprised. I mean, from blocking my original form of communication with Jungkook to blocking one of my main coping mechanisms when people are annoying me or I'm angry or stressed, it seems like my happiness shouldn't be a thing around here. This is why I hate this place so much.

Suddenly, while I'm lost in thought about how to calm down and also why I hate school sometimes, the bell rings. I grab my stuff and walk out of the classroom, huffing in annoyance and anger as I walk out. I basically storm off towards my locker, ignoring Jungkook as I go straight to it. I act like I didn't see him, my anger only increasing at the sight of him.

He walks up to me and taps me on the shoulder. He seem to be concerned since I just ignored him and seem generally angry. Little does he know that the reason behind my anger is actually him and everyone else on that stupid little forum that took his attention for so long that he couldn't reply to me.

"Hey, are you okay?" he asks, the concern evident in his voice.

Beyond angry at this point, I just drop all of my stuff onto the ground, not even looking at him.

"What's wrong?" he asks, only sounding more concerned.

The dropping of my stuff helped calm me a bit, so I actually look at him at reply. "Nothing." I was lying as I said that, of course, but I didn't want to upset him.

A small conversation starts, and I admit what is making me so angry. Surprisingly, Jungkook doesn't seem too upset. He just apologizes and tries to explain. Then we walk past our favorite teacher and say hi to him. After that, I go back to ranting, and then I come off as really angry towards Jungkook.

"Fine… I'll just cut myself, then…! I deserve it…!" he mutters while I'm still in earshot.

Realizing how badly I just messed up, I grab his sleeve, trying to apologize. "Jungkook…!! No…!!! Don't! I'm sorry!!"

I can't tell if he muttered anything or just ignored me, but he gets out of my grip and walks away. I feel hot tears of anger and worry filling my eyes as I walk towards my bus. I tell myself not to cry, for showing these emotions around people wouldn't be good. I manage to hold them back and immediately turn my phone on, grabbing my headphones out and putting them on, playing music immediately. Oh, how I wish that my school laptop worked with wireless headphones.

The rest of the bus ride home is spent being mad at myself, regretting what I had done. Jungkook messages me a lot, and he tries to take the blame for everything, but I don't let him. I know that it's my fault for getting mad at him for such a stupid misunderstanding. Besides, I don't want him to hate himself more for this incident. I was the one in the wrong the entire time, so the blame deserves to be on me. I'll be just fine in the end. I'd just hate myself more if I let him take the blame, anyway.

I soon get off of my bus. I just keep my conversations with Jungkook up, and he leaves here and there, which slightly concern me, but things are fine. Things end up being worked out and the rest of the day flies by. Then things get bad at night, and I end up being really worried about him. Being basically locked away in my bedroom, I let my emotions out, and after an hour of on and off crying, just wanting to be able to sleep, Jungkook tells me to try and sleep. After a couple of lying there and worrying about him, I fall asleep.

I wake up to my alarm the next morning just to turn it off and fall asleep for about another hour. My alarm is set in advance for that reason. It gives me time to check things online and then sleep. Besides, if I just don't want to be awake, I know that I can sleep for a bit longer. In this case, I'm just not in the mood to be awake. Sure, I start my fall break after this school day, but with so much on my mind, I just don't want to be awake anymore.

After being forced to get up and get ready for school, I try to push any thoughts about Jungkook out so I don't begin to worry. I still worry when I don't receive any messages from him when he'd usually message me. What if he wasn't going to be at school? What if he wasn't okay? What if he needed me but I couldn't be there because of the current problems in the world and school? I hated thinking like that, but it's where my mind was.

I worry about him the entire way to school, nervously thinking about him and his health, just hoping that I'll see him. I arrive at school after a while and I don't see him there. I sigh and take my school supplies out of my backpack and also grab my drawstring bag. While brought to carry my personal items to and from school, it also has my performance clothes, so carrying it around isn't too suspicious. I carry it to my homeroom and sit in my seat.

Almost immediately, I grab my phone and turn my headphones back on. I'm so worried and music might be my only option if I don't want to lose my mind. Good thing I just so happen to have a comfort playlist. I put it on and start quietly singing along, trying to calm myself down. Luckily, none of my classmates notice and I just listen to it until the bell rings.

Upon the bell ringing, I stand up, though my legs feel shaky. Why do I have to be such a worried mess sometimes? Nonetheless, I walk out of the classroom, only turning up the volume of my music in the hallways. Why deal with reality when I have my favorite escape from it? I mean, the day hasn't officially started, so I can use my phone.

I enter my first period classroom and sit at my seat. With so many people quarantined, there are only three other people in the class. I love a small class where I have an entire row of seats to myself. I just continue listening to my music until the bell rings. Even after, I keep my phone on in case I can use it. Luckily, the teacher lets us use our phones. I just listen to my favorite songs, quietly jamming out while trying to calm down, and I pull out my personal laptop to work on some stuff.

By the time the bell rings, I'm fully calmed down. I walk out of the classroom and head towards my locker to put my stuff away and grab my P.E. stuff. With so many people gone, P.E. has actually been fun recently and not just boring and sometimes annoying. The class period flies by and it's soon over. I walk back to my locker, put my P.E. stuff away, grab everything else, including my drawstring bag, and head to the music room.

After sitting in my seat, I open my laptop. To my surprise, Jungkook has messaged me. I message back, asking if he's okay, and I nervously wait for a response. Soon enough, he reveals that he just overslept and that he's at school. I sigh in relief, glad to know that he's okay and not potentially dying or something like that.

The class flies by since all we did was watch a movie and I spent the time on my laptop anyway. I walk out of the classroom and wait for Jungkook. As soon as I find him, I start talking to him and basically hug him. We talk until he reaches his classroom, just like any other day, and I head off to my own fourth period class, looking forward to lunch since I'll see Jungkook again once I'm there.

Fourth period flies by since, like in third period, we just watched a movie. I rush to my locker and put my stuff away, wanting to get food and talk to Jungkook for as long as I can. In the lunch line, I apologize for yesterday's events after he shows me what he did to himself. I feel so bad. Then we get lunch and find a place to sit and talk happily for most of the lunch period.

All was going well before the assistant principal shows up and talks to him about stuff. I just sigh and put my headphones. I'm not going to get into a conversation that I have no part in, even if I already knew about some of the issues seeing as Jungkook is my boyfriend. After the assistant principal leaves, he hugs me and I stop listening to music. We talk for the rest of lunch, and then he walks me back to my locker before we head to our classes on opposite sides of the school.

Fifth and sixth period fly by with no issue. I run into Jungkook before sixth, as usual, and we talk for a bit before he goes to his class and I walk into the classroom that we were standing outside. After seventh period, or our final period, things get weird. While walking back to my homeroom, I don't see Jungkook waiting for me. I just shrug this off and assume that he already went to class. Then I continue on my way and wait for the school day to end so we're on fall break.

About thirty minutes later, the final bell rings, and I head to my locker. I don't see Jungkook waiting for me there, though. I start to get worried about him, but I pack up anyway and leave the school. I'm still worried as I walk onto my bus, but I don't really show the worry to anyone. I just do what I normally do and listen to music.

While on the bus, I message Jungkook, asking if he's okay. I don't get a response on Discord, where we normally talk outside of school, but he does text me. The message is concerning and I begin to worry. He's being sent away? Why? What happened? Is it because of yesterday? Why am I such an idiot to allow myself to do something like that to him? Now he's gone and it's my fault…

I did say that it was long….

@heeey-bitchhhhhhhhhhh

I'm glad that you like it. Expressing this stuff has been useful. Making it some strange one shot has helped to. Also, it's not your fault. It sure does feel like it's mine, though.

@heeey-bitchhhhhhhhhhh

I can now tell you how this one shot will end. It will end with something like this (this is a sample narration from my thoughts):

That's how it ends. He broke up with me not even an hour after returning home. I knew that they'd take him away from me… I hurt him so badly without meaning to, and then he realized that I am not what's best for him. While he always claimed that I deserve better, I am sure that we both know that he is the one who deserves better. I hurt him in ways that no one should. I hurt him in a psychological way that was so bad that he intentionally hurt himself. Of course he broke up with me. He made the right choice, though. I guess I'll just die alone, being undesirable and practically heartless, but I've learned to accept that fate.

Simply enough, my girlfriend broke up with me, I see why, and I feel like a toxic jerk.

@heeey-bitchhhhhhhhhhh

Okay, so, we both might've been really over-dramatic. I can still tell you that this narration captures my feelings at the time, though. We have worked things out, though, or I hope…