(Yes, but it makes it hard for him to explain since he wasn't in any situation to make him not want someone to give him a blowjob. Whereas I do in a way)
John winces slightly then he sighs and purses his lips as he tried to word what he was about to say "It was how marianna would control me. Like a form of abusive control when she was with me and I had grown to really dislike it. Yet nym you do give me pleasure in more ways then you think besides the obvious. It's just hard to think about letting you do that and reverting back to my old ways. But since you seem to want to do it so bad then do it now"
(Well that doesn't matter, he is his own person now as you are as well. If he doesn't really have a reason oh well people gotta get over it. If you have a legitimate reason, then people have to respect that.)
Nym's head snapped up, her eyes flashed a blood red color. "No! No way in hell will I do something that may very well scar you. Yes, I really want to, but I'm not risking your emotional status. If you don't like it I won't do it, but I thank you. Now I understand more completely why you don't want me to. I'm still not letting you do those things to me, I just feel unbalanced still." Nym looks down and crosses her arms
( Well yes )
John tilts his head then nods solemnly when nym looks down "Okay….If that is how you want to decide" John then gets up off the bed to look for his clothes. Once finding them and putting them he turns to the bed to face nym "Whenever you decide to get dressed we will leave. It's about time to go and we still need time to get fitted into our suits" John huffs slightly while running a hand through his hair as he walked towards the bathroom
(If you haven't noticed I'm pretty passionate about a lot of things, mainly being true to yourself and ignore every negative comment that comes your way.)
Nym continues to look down, she makes a small grunt of acknowledgement as John walks toward the bathroom. After a few moments she stands and walks to the entrance of the door. She sobs softly "I'm sorry."
John, once he got into the bathroom, turned to the mirror to inspect his face and hair before grabbing a razor to shave his face. Upon hearing nym walk up to the door he stopped to turn and face nym "Nym….It's ok. I understand your decision"
"No, I'm sorry for all you had to go through." Nym, completely ignoring the fact she's still not dressed, walks up to John for a hug. "I know that I can be a hassle with all my constant question so I'm sorry for that too."
John gently wraps his arms around nym feeling humbled at what nym had to say "It's okay, you're not a hassle at all. I like answering your questions whenever you have one. And all that happened so long ago that I shouldn't really be bothered by them"
"But when you don't age it's more difficult to just move on." Nym sniffles "Eventually I would like to help, but it does not have to be anytime soon." Nym wipes a few tears from her face ad chuckles "I should get dressed so we can go."
John makes a face then he murmurs softly "Yes I suppose I had ages to sit on it and think. I just let it drift since I had so much time upon other things I needed to worry about. I appreciate what you are doing for me nym, you are helping me so much and I rather prefer you the way you are, but yes you really need to change"
Nym steps back a bit and turns to John's dresser. She picks up her lacey bra and puts it on, she pulls on one of John's shirts and her pants from earlier today; completely omitting underwear. She walks back up to John and leans in the doorway. "I'm ready."
John smiles as he watched nym turn away before he looked into the mirror feeling a bit melancholy as he wiped his face off. Once hearing nym tell him she was ready he held out his hand for her. He felt excited to be going back to Pylia and maybe show nym what it is like to have fun over there
Nym takes John's hand feeling his sudden build of excitement. "So, will it hurt? Going through the portal?"
John shakes his head as they head downstairs blowing out the candles on the way out the door. He tightens his hand around nyms hand "No….It's like jumping into freezing cold water. It will take your breath away completely"
(Hey hey there :3 how was your evening?)
Nym shivers at the thought "I don't wanna do that. I hate being cold." Nym side steps closer to John and giggles "I have you to take my breath away completely so why does the portal have to? Are we driving somewhere or do we have to fly?"
( Sad, it was sad lol . How about yours?)
John laughs once they made it out the door to the car, once at the car they get there John opens the door for nym like he always does. Once nym got in he walked around to his side getting in and buckling quickly "It's not cold at all love. We have to get a helicopter ride then fly ourselves into the portal"
(I'm sorry to hear that hun. Meh, I mean I did a scary thing and asked this human out a couple days ago and was surprised when they said yes. But I had a nightmare last night and was in a lot of pain. And just a lot of overthinking happened.)
Nym always seemed to smile and blush at John's chivalry. Once Nym was in the car she buckled and waited for John to get it. She turns to him placing a hand on his thigh as he drives. "But you just said it's like jumping into freezing cold water. And a helicopter? Whoa…"
( Aww no )
John makes a face then he nods when he starts the car pulling out of the driveway. John wasn't really paying attention at the moment and he felt like he was out of it "The sensation of getting your breath taken away is the same. Not the cold water"
(Yeaaaaaaa…)
Nym moves her hand to her own lap "Hmm, well okay if you say so. What's with the face? And the emotions, what is this? Your distracted, yet I can't pin an emotion." Nym's face twists in a flurry of confusion
( I hope that goes well)
John blinks then he shakes his head as he moves the steering wheel turning a corner. He glances quickly at nym before facing the road again "I am just thinking is all nym…"
(Thx, we've been trying to get at each other for about two years.. ehhe)
Nym huffs in frustration "It feels like you're blocking me out…" Nym sighs and looks out her window
( I am glad )
"I'm not blocking you out nym. Why are you thinking like this love?" John frowns then he reaches his hand out blindly for nyms hand as he stared at the road
(Meh, my family doesn't like him. They think he's a jerk and he's 3 years older. In fact he isn't a jerk he's super sweet.)
Nym doesn't realize he's reaching for her hand "Because I only feel like this if I'm being blocked hun. Maybe you're thinking about Mariana, that's all I can think of."
( Well I hope you be careful)
John sighs then he moves his hand back upon not finding it then he shakes his head yet again "I am not thinking about Marianna, but my previous home. Pylia. And how I am going to have to deliberately face my insecurity right in the face"
(Not gonna run off and get pregnant, not until i'm at least 25 or 27)
Nym continues to look off "I'm sorry, I think I'm feeling this way cause I haven't gone to work in a while and because I haven't done my usual routine of relaxing my senses. I'll need to do that soon. I'm sorry I'm being so insensitive, there is no excuse. I need to be here for you as much as you need me." she finally turns and takes John's hand, bringing it to her mouth for a soft kiss.
( I would hope not ya rebel)
John smiles at the tender gesture nym gave him then he nods feeling a renewed strength "I'm sorry about that love. You should have told me that you do those things and I would have let you do it if you needed it nym. And I will be fine as long as you are next to me because I feel like I can take on the world when you are here"
