Mine is "na na na na na na na no I can't risk falling off my throne, la la la la la la la la love is something I don't even know. Straight hair, Straight A's, Straight forward, Straight girl. Little Miss Perfect thats~ me"
and "It's never worth it when your little miss~ perfect~"
both from Little Miss Perfect a song from the musical "Write it out loud" or something
My mindset changes quite often based on the state of my mental health, but for now, I find myself resonating deeply with the lyrics from "P.O.P. (Piece Of Peace) Pt.1" by j-hope.
I'm not going to explain it all since that would take forever and I doubt many care enough to read about all my troubles, but I've found myself very hopeful recently. Hopeful for my own future, and hopeful that my newfound strength (however temporary it sometimes feels) will positively impact others struggling. Hence,
'No matter who, everyone makes mistakes
And goes through difficulties
Although they don’t know it
(I) know that pain…'
…
'I want to convey courage
The standard for happiness is you, walk that path
I want to fill it up, (that) faith
Just like a piece of cake that’s simple and easily fills the tummy…'
…
'If I
To someone, a (source of) strength
To someone, a (ray of) light
I wish, I could be a
Piece Of Peace…'
I really recommend giving it a listen. The song is in Korean, but the translation is here if you want it.
Mine is "na na na na na na na no I can't risk falling off my throne, la la la la la la la la love is something I don't even know. Straight hair, Straight A's, Straight forward, Straight girl. Little Miss Perfect thats~ me"
and "It's never worth it when your little miss~ perfect~"
both from Little Miss Perfect a song from the musical "Write it out loud" or something
OMG ITS AMITY ^0^
I love you
I am hopeful
Am I doomed?
I clamor and I moan
That house is not my home
Am I utterly forgotten?
Left alone
Lock away your secrets
Lock away my life
What if I unlocked your secrets
All from LIZZIE the musical, the soul of the white bird.
Ward Off Great Evil
For I Reach The Front Door
What Am I In HELL FOR?
Was I Born To Be Tortured?
Creatures, Medevial– Can you Guide Me?
YES, OF COURSE.
Fairy, Goblin, Unicorn– Point Me With Your Horn..
So You Don't Belive Me?
Well I'll Make It Easy
I'll Burst Open The Seams
With you STANDING NEXT TO ME
–
Thanks For The Pizza
I'll Take A Mango..
Blend it up real nice and slow…
My Dear Friends i have
made
it
home..
rewarded with time
alone…
Lyrics And Song By Soddiken
Name – GRETEL-Soddiken
This is never ending, we have been here before
But I can't stay this time 'cause I don't love you anymore - Love In The Dark - Adele
Won't ever leave my memory of bloodshed all around
And I can see a tear on my father's face before it falls out
Oh, my enemy, how could I have ever let you down? Oh
When all these trees saw us grow
Cut our teeth and make our bones right here
We'd play with shields made of stone
Share our dreams and sit our thrones
Be still, 'cause I see smoke up ahead
And I got steel in my hands - Goodbye - Ramsey
Too bad, but it's the life you lead
You're so ahead of yourself that you forgot what you need
Though you can see when you're wrong
You know you can't always see when you're right - Vienna - Billy Joel
Не слышны в саду даже шорохи
Всё здесь замерло до утра
Если б знали вы, как мне дороги
Подмосковные вечера
Если б знали вы, как мне дороги
Подмосковные вечера
Речка движется и не движется
Вся из лунного серебра
Песня слышится и не слышится
В эти тихие вечера
Песня слышится и не слышится
В эти тихие вечера
Что ж ты милая смотришь искоса
Низко голову наклоня
Трудно высказать и не высказать
Всё, что на сердце у меня
Трудно высказать и не высказать
Всё, что на сердце у меня
А развет уже всё заметнее
Так пожалуйста будь добра
Не забудь ты, эти летние
Подмосковные вечера
Не забудь ты, эти летние
Подмосковные вечера
I don't feel a single thing.
Have the pills done too much?
Haven't caught up with my friends in weeks
And now we're outta touch…
I've been driving in L.A.
And the world it feels too big.
Like a floating ball that's bound to break
Snap my psyche like a twig.
And I just wanna see if you feel the same as me…
Do you ever get a little bit tired of life?
Like you're not really happy but you don't wanna die
Like you're hanging by a thread but you gotta survive
'Cause you gotta survive?
Like your body's in the room but you're not really there
Like you have empathy inside but you don't really care
Like you're fresh outta love but it's been in the air
Am I past repair?
A little bit tired of tryin' to care when I don't.
A little bit tired of quick repairs to cope.
A little bit tired of sinkin'
There's water in my boat
I'm barely breathin'
Tryna stay afloat
So I got these quick repairs to cope.
Guess I'm just broken and broke.
Don't speak, I know just what you're sayin'
So please stop explainin'
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts
Don't speak, I know what you're thinkin'
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts
Our memories, well, they can be inviting
But some are altogether mighty frightening
As we die, both you and I
With my head in my hands, I sit and cry
"We were born sick", you heard them say it
My church offers no absolutes
He tells me, "Worship in the bedroom"
The only Heaven I'll be sent to
Is when I'm alone with you
I was born sick, but I love it
Command me to be well
How can I say this without breaking
How can I say this without taking over
How can I put it down into words
When it's almost too much for my soul alone
I loved and I loved and I lost you
don't want them to know the secrets
I don't want them to know the way I loved you
I don't think they'd understand it, no
I don't think they would accept me, no
Oh, he's a frozen treat with an all new taste
'Cause he came to this planet from outer space
A refugee of an interstellar war
But now he's at your local grocery store
Cookie Cat
He's a pet for your tummy
Cookie Cat
He's super duper yummy
Cookie Cat
He left his family behind
Cookie Cat!
Hi, hello
I'm quite a shy fellow
Yo no recuerdo palabras cuando estoy contigo
And I still don't know how to let go
Of feelings that I felt for you, baby
And my anxiety's pushing limits
Setting benchmarks higher than the f_cking moon
Sorry, I don't mean to be rude
And I've been fighting feelings
'Cause I know that I'm too shy to make a move
Looking up tutorials on YouTube
Stay inside
I'll be home by the morning
Run, don't hide
And stay asleep in your bed because it's pouring
My mind I find to be my decline, I'm fine
Don't ask me how I spend my free time, yeah
Don't ask me why, don't ask me
Hi, hello
I'm quite a shy fellow
Yo no recuerdo palabras cuando estoy contigo
And I still don't know how to let go
Of feelings that I felt for you, baby
And my anxiety's pushing limits
Setting benchmarks higher than the f_cking moon
Sorry, I don't mean to be rude
Sometimes I cry
Kinda like a bit of every other line
My insides are reclined 'cause sometimes I feel I rewind
Way too far
I played with cars when I was younger
Now I'm driving down the street to see my friends turn to cigars
And I've been fighting feelings
'Cause I know that I'm too shy to make a move
Looking up tutorials on YouTube
SHY by the one and only ~BoyWithUke~
I, I wish it was 2004
I wish my favorite bands were still on tour
And I wish everything wasn't so complicated
And I, I wish that I was still as tall
As the markings on the kitchen wall
Wish I could gain back the confidence that they created
Lately, things haven't been the best for me
I know, you think, it's all in my head
I'm crazy, for wondering what it's all for
But everyday I'm thinking of ways
For someone to come and take me away
And say "we're going back to 2004"
I, I never had it all quite figured out
I never really learned what growing up was all about
And I still don't know
And there are so many things that I wish I could say I've done
They say that time flies when you're having fun
Does time only fly when you're young?
Lately, things haven't been the best for me
I know, you think, it's all in my head
I'm crazy, for wondering what it's all for
But everyday I'm thinking of ways
For someone to come and take me away
And say "we're going back to 2004"
Looking back on it I know that I am fortunate and I cannot complain
The nerves, the stress, the total mess that's all inside my brain
But growing up just makes me really, really, really scared
And I don't think that I'm prepared
I, I wish it was 2004
I wish my childhood was still in store
And I wish everything wasn't so
So complicated
Lately, things haven't been the best for me
I know, you think, that it's all in my head
And I must be crazy, for wondering what it's all for
But everyday I'm thinking of ways
For someone to come and take me away
And say "we're going back to 2000…"
Yeah everyday I'm thinking of ways
For someone to come and take me away
And say "we're going back to 2004"
2004 - Anthony Amorim
One last kiss, I love you like a broken pot
One last kiss, I love you like a pack of dogs
One last kiss
I need you like I need a gaping head wound
One last kiss, I love you like an alcoholic
One last kiss, I love you like a négligée
One last kiss
I need you like I need a broken leg
Love u like an alcholic
whats an neglele
I dunno 🤷🏼
I did some recharge (a 10 sec google search) it's like a silky robe
I love you like a silky robeeee
shut up val (/j)
I don't blame you if you want to bury me in your memories I'm not the girl I ought to be so maybe when you tell your friends you can tell them what you saw in me and not the way I am. And I don't mean to make your heart blue but couldn't we be what we're meant to be I'm just about to beg you please (goodbye my Danish sweetheart by mitski)
Or.
I don't need the world to see that I've been the best I can be but I don't think I could stand to be where you don't see me and autumn comes when your not yet done with the summer passing by (Francis forever by mistski)
Or
Stood on the Cliffside screaming give me a reason your faithless love's the only hoax I believe in don't want no other shade of blue but you (hoax by Taylor swift)
Or
How evergreen our group of friends don't think we'll say that word again and soon they'll have the nerve to deck the halls that we once walked through one for the money two for the show I never was ready so I watch you go (champagne problems by Taylor swift)
Or
Take me to the lakes where all the poets went to die I don't belong and my beloved neither do you those Windermere peaks look like the perfect place to cry I'm setting off but not without my muse no not with out you (the lakes by Taylor swift)
Or
Half asleep taking your time in the tangerine neon lights this is luxury your not saying your in love with me but your going to half awake taking your chances it's a big mistake I said it might blow up in your pretty face I'm not saying do it anyway but your going to (slut! By Taylor swift)
Or
Often I am upset that I can not fall in love but I guess this avoids the stress of falling out of it. (This is home by cavetown)
Or
It's lovely in the evening time but everything I close my eyes the sunshine gets a little dimmer (devil town by cavetown)
Or
Meteor shower quick take cover but the hues in our hair complement one another I'd sell my own bones for sapphire (emerald) stones cause blue (green) is your favorite color (meteor shower by cavetown)
Or
All j did was try my best this the kinda thanks I get unrelentlessly upset (brutal by Olivia Rodrigo)
Or
Huret people hurt people we both drew blood but man those cuts were never equal and I try to be tough but I wanna scream how could anybody do the things you did so easily and I say I don't care I say that I'm fine but you know I can't let it go I try I try I try for so long (the grudge by Olivia Rodrigo)
Or
And it's hard so out there when i feel like an open wound it's hard to be anywhere these day when all I want is you / I just wanted you to know that this is me trying I just wanted you to know that this is me trying at least I'm trying / got so ahead of the curve the curve became a sphere (this is me trying by Taylor swift)
Or
I'm still on that tightrope I'm still trying everything to keep you looking at me and I'm still a believer but I don't know why I've never been a natural all I do is try try try and I'm still of that trapeze I'm still trying everything to keep you looking at me (mirrorball by you guessed it Taylor swift)
I have this dream that I am hitting my dad with a baseball bat
And he is screaming and crying for help
And maybe halfway through, it has more to do with me killing him
Then it ever did protecting myself
And I believe that, yeah, Dad, maybe no one is perfect
But I believe that you were pushing your luck
It just sucks it played out like this
A terrible movie and you can tell none of the actors even give a fuck
But you look good tonight, girlfriend
Can I sleep in your bed?
And when I crawl out in the morning
Can I stay inside your head?
'Cause you were high school
And I was just more like real life
And you were okay, okay as a girlfriend, girlfriend
But I was just more like his wife
I'll do the push-ups, I'll wear the makeup
I'll do whatever he wants all night
'Cause you were okay, okay as a girlfriend, girlfriend
But I was just more like real life
A long, long time ago, my great-great-great-great-grandfather
Took something that did not belong to him
And that is why today I have an eagle in my veins
I am part Native American
And I am leaving as soon as I come
As soon as I come, you will probably forget my name
I hope I fall asleep at the wheel and crash my car on the ride home
Or I could just stay here, because
You look good tonight, girlfriend
Can I sleep in your bed?
And when I crawl out in the morning
Can I stay inside your head?
'Cause you were high school
And I was just more like real life
And you were okay, okay as a girlfriend, girlfriend
But I was just more like his wife
I'll wear the makeup, I'll do the push-ups
I'll do whatever he wants all night
'Cause you were okay as a girlfriend
And I was just more like real life
More like real life, more like real life
More like real life, more like real life
'Cause you were high school
And I was just more like real life
And you were okay, okay as a girlfriend, girlfriend
I was just more like his wife
And it is okay, I'll wear the makeup
I'll do whatever you want all night
'Cause you were okay, okay as a girlfriend, girlfriend
But I was just more like real life
More like real life
Yeah, I think we certainly have enough
ORR
I don't wanna feel better
No one's ever gonna love me like that again
I don't wanna get over you
I wanna sit with you in bed
I don't wanna feel better
I'd give anything to miss you again
I don't wanna get over it
I wanna get under it instead
A book sits on top of clean and messy blankets
On a bed that fuckin' creaks at night when I get in it late
And late at night, I'm chugging Gatorade
And someone's breaking up when I crack up
Because I know I'll never know just what to say
I'm a communist, a terrorist, an MPDG thot
Or I'm a sad girl in a dorm room, living out the shady Christian plot of
Twilight or The Bible or The Lover by Duras
Or I'm just really fuckin' selfish and really fuckin' lost
But someone loved me, someone fucking loved me
Someone fucking loved me and I fuckin' loved them too
Goddamn it, I was worth something, I fuckin' learned something
I had my cake (I ate it, it ate me too and, God, no)
I don't wanna feel better
We kept our liquor in a suitcase underneath my bed
And we drank it to go out or just stay in or to feel sad
But in a hot way, a way I'll fuckin' never have again
The sun has began to set
I'm a socialist, Marxist, libertarian slut
I am an awkward teenage virgin and I sort of kinda laugh a lot in bed
But other times, I cry or don't make noise at all
I'd give my life to have a room that feels that small
'Cause someone loved me, someone fucking loved me
Someone fucking loved me, I loved them too
Goddamn it, I was worth something, I fuckin' earned something
I have a right to die, a right to live, a right to choose, too
And God, no!
Of course I don't wanna feel better!
Can you fucking imagine?!
No one's ever gonna love me like that again
I don't wanna get over it
I wanna rip the stars to shreds
I don't wanna feel better
Of course it hurt, of course it fuckin' hurt
It hurt like nothing in the world sometimes
That I was super scared, and we were all a train-wreck
And also somehow making it
I think I might've died there twice, and I would do it all again
I'm a nihilist, a soldier, an OCD-machine
Or I'm a healthy baby-girl who traded sunshine for disease
But when my head hit my cheap pillow, I could tell I had a heart
And I wanna tear this fascist Milky Way apart
'Cause someone loved me, someone fuckin' loved me
All my filthy life I loved someone I barely knew
Goddamn it, I was worth something, I fuckin' learned something
And it felt better in my mouth than fresh warm food
I guess I loved you, I guess I really loved you
All my filthy life I loved someone I barely knew
And now you're over there, and I'm way over here
What am I gonna do?
I don't wanna feel better
No one's ever gonna love me like that again
I don't wanna get over you
I wanna sit with you in bed
I don't wanna feel better
Was it too late to call you?
Was I too drunk to know?
Do you ever feel like you fell off for about a year
I'd like to have another go
'Cause I haven't slept in about a week
I stay up thinking I will die
This time I'm blaming it on smoking
Tried it once, it wrecked my life
Or maybe it's your love
That keeps me up at night
I wish I tried more, wish I tried more
Wish I tried
What's this?
The consequences of my actions, now
What's this?
The consequences of my actions
What's this?
The consequences of my actions, now
What's this?
The consequences of my actions
"What time's the train stop?"
She asks me as I drawl
You're just so painfully punctual
I'm starting to get bored
I decorate my mind
The same beige as the walls
I'm yours, I'm yours, I'm yours
Drink, I've had too much to think
Just tell me, baby, is this seat taken now?
What's this?
The consequences of my actions, now
What's this?
The consequences of my actions
What's this?
What's this?
What's this?
What's this?
What's this?
The consequences of my actions, now
What's this?
The consequences of my actions, now
What's this?
The consequences of my actions, now
What's this?
The consequences of my actions
(Consequences - Lovejoy)
Oh, I think you're standing on my left foot
It's hurting, but that's okay
'Cause I'm in your way
You'll break that foot that you're standing on
I'll walk with the other one
Do what you want to, do what you want to
Be what you want to, be what you want to
Go on and step on me
You're free to have everything you can see
All that you want from me
Free to be all that you want to be
Do what you want with me
Oh, I think you're spinning inside my head
I think of you all the day
'Cause you're in my way
Oh, I think you're holding the heart of mine (my heart is yours)
Squeeze it apart, that's fine
Do what you want to, do what you want to
Be what you want to, be what you want to
Go on and step on me
You're free to have everything you can see
All that you want from me
Do what you want to, do what you want to
Be what you want to, be what you want to
Go on and step on me
You're free to have everything you can see
All that you want from me
You're free to be all that you want to be
Do what you want with me
Go on and step on me
Go on and step on me
Go on and step on me
(Step on me-the cardigans.)
(I'm actully delusional about him <33)
Basically, I bet you'll see
At first, I'm not quite what I seem
Every day is just the same
Picking names, repeating faces
Everything is show and tell
And things are played off somewhat well
Holding hands, we're rather bored
Nothing lines up anymore
I could never understand
How first impressions go unplanned
Everybody hides their face
How could I have noticed?
Nonetheless, we're all the same
There's many things from where we came
Show a smile, we're rather bored
Nothing lines up anymore
Turn around about a new view
Bring about the fear inside you
Make a storm of tears and anger
Never mind, don't worry 'bout me
We've disposed of our contention
Do our best, avoid attention
"Just accept the things you know"
Well, maybe so…
Wait, what is going on here?
I'm a little out of sorts
I've been contemplating fallacies and things that scare me
"Why not try to let go?"
I've been feeling out of order
I'm allowing change, so take a good look;
This is me
This is what I've come to be
This is what I've come to be
Look away 'cause we forgot
The apathy that's tied in knots
Hearing our every thought
Everything is show and tell
And things are played off somewhat well
All because we're rather bored
Nothing matters anymore
Moving along, dancing along, playing along
I am
Waiting for it, preparing it, looking for it
I am
Feeling around, messing around, looking at you
I am
Laughing a lot, losing a lot, looking at you
I am
What the hell should I do?
I've been feeling out of order
I've been sorta noticing fallacies and things that see me
Surely you've always known
I'm a little out of sorts
First impressions reborn
This is what I've come to be
This is what I shouldn't be
This is what I wanna be
The Chattering Lack Of Common Sense - Ghost and Pals. Because I’m always confused af, and I’m not really sure what my opinions are or how I’m gonna be out in the Real World. I suppose time will tell.