forum Riencarnation of the hearts

Started June 04, 2019 by @Festive_Fenrir

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He smiled softly and stroked his hair, playing with the end before repeating the motion. his other hand traced the scars flecking his skin on his back, rubbing them gently before moving onto another scar along his skin

"You trace my scars a lot. How come?" Axel turned over. He sat horizontally on the bed with his head on Jas's chest.

Jas shrugged, moving his hand from Axel's waist to his upper back as he turned. "I don't really know how to explain it." he said, voice low and soft. "it's kind of a reminder of our past lives. They all connect to a certain event that's happened between us."

Axel sat up and raised Jas's shirt. He ran a hand down the big scar down the middle of him. "I'm sorry, I wasn't there in time…" Axel remembered his screams and ripped his hand away. "You were in so much pain…"

Jas shuddered softly at the touch, arching up slightly into the hand. He sat up when Axel took his hand away and gently cupped his cheek "my love, there was nothing you could have done. Plus, i'm the one who suggested that we split up." he pulled him close, tucking Axel under his chin. "i would have been in more pain if they had gotten you. If they had left me alive long enough to watch you die. Then i would have considered that painful." he kissed his head and slowly leaned back on the bed, puling Axel with him

"But I-…I still could've….done something." Axel placed his hands back on the scar. He felt the difference between the two textures between his skin and the skin that was no longer skin. "I felt so helpless. I want to run in there and save you, but I froze my legs wouldn't move and I-…I didn't know what to do…"

He shook his head again and kissed him gently, gasping softly as Axel skimmed over the area around his scar. “I was beyond saving by the time you got there. Even if you did kill him and managed to get help, I would have bled out and died anyways.”

"I don't know. I guess we both have our regrets don't we?" Axel gave a soft chuckle. The scar ran deep to his waist so he let his hand slip down there. "Though you do seem to like me touching your scars." He smirked.

“We do, but that’s how we learn.” Jas shivered in pleasure and pressed into the gentle touch with a small hum. “It’s sensitive around that area, but not in a hurtful way.”

“It’s nice to see you blush for once.” Axel brought a his hand up to Jas’s cheek. He looked at him for a moment before pressing their lips together. “From now on this is a of rated show which means…” he trailed off and took the case from under the bed. He opened it and pointed. “we have to throw these away.”

He leaned into the kiss slightly with a grin. "now you know how I feel every time you blush." Jas sat up with a pout when Axel broke away and looked over to the case. "what's in them?" he asked, leaning in to get a better look

"Guns, knifes, gun powder, and my favorite gun. Goldishots was my favorite. She worked so hard and so fast when killing." He rubbing his face against the gun. "But I have to give her up don't I?"

“We could always keep them in a storage unit if you truest don’t want to give them up. That way they’re not in the house but we also have them if we ever truest need them.” Jas offered with a small laugh as he watched Axel with his beloved gun

“Great Idea!” Axel kissed his gun and put it back in the case. “Do you have a favorite weapon?”

"I have a few blades and here and there that I've grown to favor more than others over lifetimes. Those will probably go into the storage unit as well." he flopped back onto the bed, his hands behind his head as he watched Axel put the weapon back in the case

Axel nodded and slipped the case back under the bed. He laid back down and placed a hand on his chest. "Don't hold this against you. It's not your fault, but…when you didn't have your memories I was going to get ice cream for us. I saw you with a group of people. You seemed to be laughing and having fun. I didn't think anything of it. So, I walked up to you and gave you your ice cream and you kind of fell silent. The people left soon after. When we were alone together you didn't smile like you did when you talked to those people. I don't know maybe I was just worried that day, but you kind of seemed…scared of me. Maybe it's me I see things all the time." Axel smiled. "Then it happened again…and again…and again…It was easier to talk to other people rather than talking to me. I just had to say it's been on my mind for a while."

Jas laced their hands together and pressed his lips to his hand, listing to him as he spoke and shutting his eyes. He opened his eyes when Axel finished and tugged him on top of him.
"I wasn't myself when I didn't have any memories or soul." he said softly, frowning slightly as he thought back "I guess I was scared. Not of you but the idea of not being the person you knew the life before. Of disappointing you, of hurting you, even though I didn't have particularly strong feeling for you. I didn't want to be looked at as a disappointment by you. I hated the feeling of expectation, talking to other people who didn't know me like you did i guess felt more comforting than being alone with you."
He glanced at Axel and gently stroked his cheek "You keep saying it's not my fault, and while yes, I didn't control my death, i still could have handled not having memories better, even if I didn't remember how it felt to love you." He leaned in close and pressed a kiss to his lips "but that won't ever happen again, I swear to you it won't."

"I really am so selfish huh?" Axel closed his eyes. "I get jealous easy, I guess. Sorry for my impulsiveness." He apologized and press a soft kiss to Jas's lips. "Let's go to bed, it's felt like forever since we slept in the same bed."

"Don't apologize my love, I like it when you're selfish and impulsive." he grinned and kissed him again, tugging him close. "It gives me an excuse to keep you close and away from everyone else." He nuzzled into Axel and nodded "it does indeed my darling creature." he kissed him one last time before covering them in heavy blankets, pulling him close to his chest and curling around him protectively

"Well, you need no excuse to keep me close." Axel tangled their legs before falling asleep.

Jas smiled, watching his beloved sleep for a while before he too drifted off. on occasion he would shift and wrap Axel in his arms a bit more tightly, as if to remind himself this was all real. Other than the shifting, he remained peacefully asleep until the early morning hours.

Axel opened his eyes, Jas blocking the light. He sat up slightly and blocked his eyes from the sun. He yawned and started to get out of bed. Axel walked into the kitchen and then started to make breakfast.

Jas whined softly when Axel got out of bed, missing his warmth and feel. He eventually got up, now that he was awake and ran a hand through his hair. He wandered through the apartment with a blanket wrapped around his shoulders until he found Axel in the kitchen

"Nice to see you're awake. I'm making Belgian waffles and bacon. Anything else you want? Like cinnamon rolls or something like that?" Axel asked closing the waffle maker.

Jas wrapped his arms around Axel and nudged the side of his head affectionately "beside you back in bed with me? theirs not much else I could ask for." he said, voice low and husky from sleep. he kissed the area below Axel's ear and moaned softly, nipping gently at the earlobe