"Shit, man," Ethan mumbled, rubbing the back of his neck and grimacing at the open display of emotion. His eyes flickered briefly to the digital clock on the stove and he mentally resigned himself to missing his morning classes. Maybe he could shoot his engineering professor an email if he was still alive in the next few hours.
He sighed softly, then clicked his phone off and set it on the counter behind him. He shot Gilan an appraising look, clearly more at ease with the weapon on the ground. "You drink coffee?" he asked, apparently deciding the teen wasn't going to shoot him as long as he didn't do anything stupid.
Without waiting for a response he headed over to the coffee maker and pulled the pot from its holder, venturing back towards the sink to rinse and fill it. He kept Gilan in his peripherals the entire time, only finally speaking when he had the pot sitting under a steady stream of water.
"I'm sorry for your loss," he finally said, his voice solemn. "I know the circumstances are a lot different, but I know what it's like to lose a parent." He let that hang heavy in the air before turning to face Gilan again.
"You look like her. The shape of your face, I mean. And your eyes," he added, gesturing vaguely towards the teen. "I don't look anything like my mom, so I guess I'm a little jealous."
He paused, the brief humor in his eyes fading to a somberness as he thought back to the night in question. He was reluctant to begin, worried that his lack of information might spur Gilan into reconsidering his earlier statement about not wanting to hurt him, but it wasn't like he could just make things up, either. "I…really don't know much. I mean, one second Ms. Luther is walking out the door with her items, and the next, I'm being questioned by a bunch of police officers who say I was the last one to see her."
Ethan took a deep breath, clearing his throat as the lingering anxiety and grief for a woman he barely knew settled into his chest.
"I'm—I was the only employee there that night, you know? I hate working nights, but my boss needed somebody and I needed the cash. I'm already basically living paycheck to paycheck as it is, which is—which is a different issue, it doesn't really matter. Anyways, your mom i—was…one of our regulars. We used to mention her because she was always so nice to everyone, but it was pretty obvious she was having a hard time," he explained carefully, eyes darting to Gilan's bedraggled appearance and hoping he didn't take offense. "She always talked about her son and so, Ashley, a, a coworker of mine, managed to convince the boss to let some of us start a donation box for people who were financially struggling. It's a year-round charity kind of a thing. This was a couple of weeks before…you know…" he trailed off.
"But um, yeah. We kept tabs on the dono box and used those funds whenever someone wasn't quite able to cover the cost of their trip, or when someone tried to steal something like a bag of chips or a drink or whatever. We'd just, just use the donations for them, 'cause it's obviously not in the best part of town and we wanted to help with what we could."
Realizing he was deviating a bit from the story again, he paused to collect his thoughts. "It was probably rude of us to assume, but we all figured we would use the donations to help out your mom. But…she never needed them. Not once. She always had her money counted out perfectly, her card never declined, and we never had an issue running any checks. We tried a couple of times to pay for one of her items, telling her she should save the money for something else, but she always refused."
The sound of overflowing water caught his attention and he quickly shut the tap off. His eyes wandered over to the pantry to Gilan's right, and then the teen himself. "Would you grab the coffee? It's on the bottom right shelf, red bag," he asked, voice far softer than a moment ago.
After pouring out some of the excess water in the pot and wiping the sides dry, he started speaking again. "The reason I'm saying any of this, the reason I brought up the donation box or whatever, is because on the night she—she died, she didn't have any kind of payment with her. I don't think she planned on coming to the store, but I didn't notice any other red flags like she was running from someone or trying to get somewhere. She seemed a little stressed, maybe, but I kinda just chalked it up to her job."
"She ended up asking if I could grab her a pack of blue 305 hundreds," he recalled. "I remember that specifically because I hadn't ever seen her buy cigarettes or smoke. She never even smelled like smoke when I saw her, but I mean, you would know better than I… Anyways, she kept apologizing and saying that she'd come back to pay when she got the chance, and I trusted her and everything but I told her not to worry about it. I mean, if she came into the store at half-past midnight with no money looking for cigarettes, she must have really needed them, right? So I just used some of the money from the donation box to cover it."
He glanced at Gilan, searching his eyes for something like validation. "The police didn't seem to think it was weird, but it is, right? I mean I didn't know her very well, but it just seemed out of character. Maybe…maybe if I told someone she…" he trailed off, swallowing back an emotion he didn't want to deal with.
Ethan blinked, glancing at Gilan again after a long moment. "Do you have the coffee?"