no problem :) <3
ok my personal rant: I hate school o hate school I hate every second my nails are chewed down as far as they go and I can’t think for 15 seconds without panicking.i k know I have to do it because I need to have a nice life but what about my life right now??? My relationships are shit, i’m really “bUMmED” all the time I can’t take tests anymore without my heart racing and my hands shaking. I can’t do anything. I can’t do anything I love aaaaaAaaaaaAAAAAAA
I'm sorry I left. I had to blow off some steam or risk committing homicide.
I read everyone's messages and responses and just thank you guys so much for understanding and being here to help. It means a lot to me.
Of course darling. We are all here for you.
Oof. Sorry Moony.
My nails are like that too, have you tried wearing gloves?
Hi I think I need a rant about how horrible the past few days have been
First off is thursday
That was horrible
First off I couldnt find my ADHD meds
In the process of looking for them I found some of my artwork
Which was damaged
And happens to be irreplaceable
I got to school and by the time I got to art class i was happy again.
Then i got picked up from school so that was good
But then i had to go home and watch my annoying baby sister…
I fed her and let her out of her seat.
I went to deal with her leftovers and found her dumping my previously forgotten about and just remembered caramel hot chocolate on my phone.
Also I got my period that morning so that did not help.
And then i found out that night that i had a fever and couldnt go to school friday (yesterday) and would miss a bunch of stuff and would be under a ton of extra stress come monday right after getting back on top of everything…
Friday
Wasnt that horrible
Had constant nagging stress over school
Constant headache due to loud sisters who have no consideration.
Cramps.
Today (saturday)…
Got woken up a 7 in the morning instead of sleeping in…
Was not allowed to go back to sleep despite needing it because mom had to go out and take the car to the garage…
Wasnt allowed to curl up on the couch and was forced to do pointless things…
Moving also caused head to hurt more and aggravated period cramps( which I almost never get) and also caused me to have more coughing fits which in turn caused more pain…
Had to sit through noisy sisters all morning
Sisters are still inconsiderate
Cant sleep now cause my body wont let me even though I need it….
Head still hurts..
Am still stressing out cause I have EQAO in math on monday and I probably wont be able to go…
Will miss more class time for art and geography summaries (which can ONLY be done in class)
Have even more pileup of science work which is my last class of the day which means I have to bring my stress home with me to get it done…
And to top it off all my roleplays are dead and I am bored out of my skull….
well all that sucks i'm really sorry
if you want to do a new rp i'm procrastinating big time so i'd be up for that
Actually I'm setting one up right now if you wanna join!
I'm going to rant for a second, ok?
Lately I hate everything. School, other people, myself, my drawings, everything. People have been ignoring me and just hating me in general. I'm ok with that, or I pretend to be. I lie to myself that everything is ok. It seems like only 2 people have my back nowadays.
I haven't been able to sleep. I've been running on caffeine for the past month.
My parents have been fighting more often. It doesn't make me sad. Just really fucking pissed.
Snow. 3 feet of it. Winter might be the root of a lot of my problems.
My school is homophobic. All I hear in the halls is "begone thot" or "no homo".
I just don't feel comfortable in my body.
It's been harder for me to show appreciation. I wish I could show a few people how eternally grateful and happy I am that they are in my life.
Oh. Hey YB. Hey Starlight! Sorry you guys have to go through it!
(I'm just gonna keep bumping this)
Ugh… Why does my brain get attached to music so easily? Whenever I find out that a song I’m listening to has lyrics that are a little too suggestive, I try to “break up” with it (by removing it from all my playlists, my SoundCloud likes, and replacing it with another song). Recently I’ve been listening to this really good song called Me!Me!Me!… So the song itself has okay lyrics (at least from what I read), but according to the internet it originally went viral for its music video having some… “Extreme fanservice”. So I need to break up with it, but I just can’t. This is going to destroy me… It’s so darn catchy how do I just “not listen to it”? … I also need to break up with Tokio Funka but I’ve kinda stalled that one for over a year already… What am I supposed to do about this? These songs are so good but I seriously can’t be listening to them
Poor NutElla bean!
hugs
Hm… I'm just sad and stressed becuase I have a history test in a few minutes and I can't remember anything, it also doesn't help that I feel like shit.
Sorry, Lex. That really sucks
Ugh… Why does my brain get attached to music so easily? Whenever I find out that a song I’m listening to has lyrics that are a little too suggestive, I try to “break up” with it (by removing it from all my playlists, my SoundCloud likes, and replacing it with another song). Recently I’ve been listening to this really good song called Me!Me!Me!… So the song itself has okay lyrics (at least from what I read), but according to the internet it originally went viral for its music video having some… “Extreme fanservice”. So I need to break up with it, but I just can’t. This is going to destroy me… It’s so darn catchy how do I just “not listen to it”? … I also need to break up with Tokio Funka but I’ve kinda stalled that one for over a year already… What am I supposed to do about this? These songs are so good but I seriously can’t be listening to them
Do you just need catchy music that is safe & clean?
Ugh… Why does my brain get attached to music so easily? Whenever I find out that a song I’m listening to has lyrics that are a little too suggestive, I try to “break up” with it (by removing it from all my playlists, my SoundCloud likes, and replacing it with another song). Recently I’ve been listening to this really good song called Me!Me!Me!… So the song itself has okay lyrics (at least from what I read), but according to the internet, it originally went viral for its music video having some… “Extreme fanservice”. So I need to break up with it, but I just can’t. This is going to destroy me… It’s so darn catchy how do I just “not listen to it”? … I also need to break up with Tokio Funka but I’ve kinda stalled that one for over a year already… What am I supposed to do about this? These songs are so good but I seriously can’t be listening to them
Do you just need catchy music that is safe & clean?
I already have safe, clean music, I just can't get it to replace the other stuff
Ugh… Why does my brain get attached to music so easily? Whenever I find out that a song I’m listening to has lyrics that are a little too suggestive, I try to “break up” with it (by removing it from all my playlists, my SoundCloud likes, and replacing it with another song). Recently I’ve been listening to this really good song called Me!Me!Me!… So the song itself has okay lyrics (at least from what I read), but according to the internet, it originally went viral for its music video having some… “Extreme fanservice”. So I need to break up with it, but I just can’t. This is going to destroy me… It’s so darn catchy how do I just “not listen to it”? … I also need to break up with Tokio Funka but I’ve kinda stalled that one for over a year already… What am I supposed to do about this? These songs are so good but I seriously can’t be listening to them
Do you just need catchy music that is safe & clean?
I already have safe, clean music, I just can't get it to replace the other stuff
Do you want more? I have a mix playlist of upbeat songs, (A mix of disney, christian rock, and other stuff,) there are like two songs on there that have swear words… only two.. and none are what I'd consider love songs in any way shape or form, (There is one exception)
Hi friends! how are you doing?
stressed. ahh. rehearsal every night till 10pm, one dance number where i'm on my fing knees the back half of the dance, and all sorts of other crap.
Not great, but oksy.
AAGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH I know this place is used to seeing me as my usual happy, bubbly self that would never get angry at anyone, but I woke up at 2 AM last night due to "Satan's waterfall" hitting me like a brick and it hurts. I'm going to try and stay positive but with the lack of sleep and all the mood swings I'm not sure if I'm going to be able to keep my cool and not be bitter about everything, especially considering everything around me has just become this big ball of wibbly-wobbly timey wimey HATRED and I'm too much of an idiot to take a break from notebook so I'm apologizing right now for any awful things I say this week, I am just not in a good mood
It's OK Ella. We get it, darling. It's cool.
AAGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH I know this place is used to seeing me as my usual happy, bubbly self that would never get angry at anyone, but I woke up at 2 AM last night due to "Satan's waterfall" hitting me like a brick and it hurts. I'm going to try and stay positive but with the lack of sleep and all the mood swings I'm not sure if I'm going to be able to keep my cool and not be bitter about everything, especially considering everything around me has just become this big ball of
wibbly-wobbly timey wimeyHATRED and I'm too much of an idiot to take a break from notebook so I'm apologizing right now for any awful things I say this week, I am just not in a good mood
I'm so sorry but… bowties are cool.
AAGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH I know this place is used to seeing me as my usual happy, bubbly self that would never get angry at anyone, but I woke up at 2 AM last night due to "Satan's waterfall" hitting me like a brick and it hurts. I'm going to try and stay positive but with the lack of sleep and all the mood swings I'm not sure if I'm going to be able to keep my cool and not be bitter about everything, especially considering everything around me has just become this big ball of
wibbly-wobbly timey wimeyHATRED and I'm too much of an idiot to take a break from notebook so I'm apologizing right now for any awful things I say this week, I am just not in a good moodI'm so sorry but… bowties are cool.
They're brilliant and fantastic
AAGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH I know this place is used to seeing me as my usual happy, bubbly self that would never get angry at anyone, but I woke up at 2 AM last night due to "Satan's waterfall" hitting me like a brick and it hurts. I'm going to try and stay positive but with the lack of sleep and all the mood swings I'm not sure if I'm going to be able to keep my cool and not be bitter about everything, especially considering everything around me has just become this big ball of
wibbly-wobbly timey wimeyHATRED and I'm too much of an idiot to take a break from notebook so I'm apologizing right now for any awful things I say this week, I am just not in a good moodI'm so sorry but… bowties are cool.
They're brilliant and fantastic
So are fezes.
Bowties are amazing
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