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Started November 09, 2019 by @The-N-U-T-Cracker

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So i'm helping my mom and such with as much as i can, and with everything going on for me, having to plan my birthday, keeping my grades up and trying to do good in school. Is it my damn fault that we are fucking broke as hell…is it my fault that my brain is different than hers? Is it my fault that my dad is the only one working right now? Appearently my mom is blaming me for the lack of money and that im fucking lazy…..

That is not your fault. As a child, you have responsibilities that you should and shouldn't have to take care of. And finances are none of your concern. Your mother shouldn't be pushing the blame on you like that, it's not okay. You just need to keep doing your best in school and keep being a child. You are perfect, Jake. I support you and feel free to PM me if you ever need to talk more.

That is not your fault. As a child, you have responsibilities that you should and shouldn't have to take care of. And finances are none of your concern. Your mother shouldn't be pushing the blame on you like that, it's not okay. You just need to keep doing your best in school and keep being a child. You are perfect, Jake. I support you and feel free to PM me if you ever need to talk more.

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I 100% support this, and I'd like to add on to it.

Life is tough. I get that, I really do. Sometimes, it helps me to think of Life as a person. Someone with mood swings. Sometimes, Life is just not in a good mood. He's grumpy, and so he throws all this stuff on you. And that's hard to deal with. So no, it's not your fault that you guys are having money problems, or that your brain isn't exactly like hers. No. One might be thinking, wait, but then isn't it Life's fault? No. It's no-one's fault. Maybe someone made a small decision that led to life as it is now, but there was no direct causation. Perhaps all you've been doing is just walking along, trying to keep going, when all of a sudden Life decides to dig you a pit right below your feet. And you fall, all the way to rock bottom. But don't give up, not quite yet. Your time in this world hasn't ended yet. If you're at the bottom, it means things can't get any worse. It means that the only direction to go is up. Upwards to freedom, to being able to tackle Life to the ground, saying, "I'm not done living yet. And you can't stop me from living my life the way I want it to."

yeah but if i did that to my mom….she'd… i have no idea what she'd do….i was even thinking on canceling my birthday this year for their sake…its just my birthday…i have one next year… and it's just me turning 16…if they need the money that bad , i'll look into giving them all the money i earn from baby sitting and shoveling and mowing { in the summer and spring of course} and not to mention when i get a job …i'll even see about anything i can do to earn money.

No honey your sweet sixteen is special. After that, then give it all. You still deserve to live life, I mean your sixteenth is SPECIAL ya know?

…it is…in a good and a bad way……good way is….it's the day i was born ….bad day is…….it's the anniversity of my parents being shot in 2004……

But your parent's aren't dead Jake. What? Confused.

I am also confused.

…That was the shooting….they almost died….if it wasn't for my aunt calling the police…they would've died…and eevry year on my birthday…my mom makes a big deal out of it…even if i have sleepovers…she cries and says its the worst memory she has…and then my dad has to cheer her up…and i hate it……i understand that it's scarred them….but another thing i thought of….i could've been an orphan….i would've had to live with my abusive grandparents…i would've been a spoiled brat and be like every other prissy bitch in school.

I am also confused.

It's a very long story but i'll tell you all of it if you want.

I am also confused.

It's a very long story but i'll tell you all of it if you want.

You don't have to if you don't want to. But if you do want to, I'll listen.

Okay…i'll tell… – My parents were working the night shift at taco bell , i was at my mom's grandparents house , and it was my first birthday but since my parents had to work they had to change it to a different date, as they were closing their shift , some of their friends came in with some high school kids, and they pulled out some guns and demanded money, they aimed a gun at my mom, who was pregnant with my 1st brother , and fired the bullet , but my dad stopped it, they only shot it because they refused to hand them the money, so then when they shot my dad, my mom grabbed a phone and called my aunt, but was also shot while on the phone. Within that time my aunt had heard everything called the police and they rushed my parents to the hospital…… my mom and dad lost A LOT of blood…… and i had to wait more weeks for my actual birthday… then that following year, my brother was born…and everything went on from there… the people who shot my parents are still in jail…and i go to school with one of the culprates kids…..

Oh my. That's horrible. I'm glad that you and your parents are okay (to a degree).

yeah…but…now you know why i can always just not have a party this year, either im turning 16 or not……

yeah…but…now you know why i can always just not have a party this year, either im turning 16 or not……

I honestly admire your ability to make sacrifices. I know a lot of people who would not be this way and would whine, so I really appreciate you. You are a good person, I can tell. I know that I don't really know you, but I support you, darling, okay? I'm here if you need anything. You are great.

Damn this really escalated quickly my god

I'm so sorry Jake

Oh, I have a concern as well…
So I was watching this livestream a while back, because my friend sent it to me and said he thought it looked suspicious, so I watched and these people in black masks had this asian dude's hands and feet tied with his head pulled back. A man with a black mask pulled out a pocket knife and began hastily cutting open the man's neck, and with blood all over the place, the masked man dropped him and his head kind of tilted, exposing the inside of his throat and that stuff.

Ever since, my neck has felt really weird and I get seriously panicked whenever I swallow water or air or food, whatever. I just hate the feeling. Anyone relate or know of anything that could help?

Oh, I have a concern as well…
So I was watching this livestream a while back, because my friend sent it to me and said he thought it looked suspicious, so I watched and these people in black masks had this asian dude's hands and feet tied with his head pulled back. A man with a black mask pulled out a pocket knife and began hastily cutting open the man's neck, and with blood all over the place, the masked man dropped him and his head kind of tilted, exposing the inside of his throat and that stuff.

Ever since, my neck has felt really weird and I get seriously panicked whenever I swallow water or air or food, whatever. I just hate the feeling. Anyone relate or know of anything that could help?

I can relate to that so much, and the way i do so is i grab anyting that's soft or i just listen to music.

oof I totally forgot music helps like everything
hmmmmm soft… I don't really have anything
But music does the trick just fine

Thanks!

yeah…but…now you know why i can always just not have a party this year, either im turning 16 or not……

I honestly admire your ability to make sacrifices. I know a lot of people who would not be this way and would whine, so I really appreciate you. You are a good person, I can tell. I know that I don't really know you, but I support you, darling, okay? I'm here if you need anything. You are great.

Thanks…I'm kinda glad i can talk to people that i don't already know, so they don't judge me on my looks or how i act in person. { i was used and bullied alot so i hate it mentally. i can't even listen to people screaming without flinching or crying.}

I'm really sorry for what you've been through, Jake. I'd trade places in a heartbeat. No one deserves to go through those things or be treated the way a lot of people have. My childhood stunk, but compared to yours it's nothing. I'm glad you can find a sort of safe place here with people you don't really know, because it can make a huge difference! Keep pushing forward, Chief.

I'm really sorry for what you've been through, Jake. I'd trade places in a heartbeat. No one deserves to go through those things or be treated the way a lot of people have. My childhood stunk, but compared to yours it's nothing. I'm glad you can find a sort of safe place here with people you don't really know, because it can make a huge difference! Keep pushing forward, Chief.

hugs you im very greatful.

Yo it's no problem pm me if you want lol
I'd be glad to spend time and talk about anything and everything you may need
I'm not too great at talking or writing, but I know the presence of another is all we need sometimes. :3

Again all i can say is thank you…and i will PM you when ever i need something