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Started December 04, 2018 by @basil_

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Is it weird that I can't imagine life without mental illness
like, I don't understand how you go through life without wanting to…die?

Yeah…

Is it weird that I can't imagine life without mental illness
like, I don't understand how you go through life without wanting to…die?

You live for the good people in your life! That's how… I've been with and without mental illness and I function the same externally either way…

Is it weird that I can't imagine life without mental illness
like, I don't understand how you go through life without wanting to…die?

Yeah…

I imagine it all of the time. I'm constantly wishing I had a life where I didn't have to deal with those thoughts that like to sneak up on me at the most inconvenient times.

Is it weird that I can't imagine life without mental illness
like, I don't understand how you go through life without wanting to…die?

Yeah…

I imagine it all of the time. I'm constantly wishing I had a life where I didn't have to deal with those thoughts that like to sneak up on me at the most inconvenient times.

Yeah
I'm getting meds soon, so that should help…
or make me want to comit…

Is it weird that I can't imagine life without mental illness
like, I don't understand how you go through life without wanting to…die?

Yeah…

I imagine it all of the time. I'm constantly wishing I had a life where I didn't have to deal with those thoughts that like to sneak up on me at the most inconvenient times.

yeah like..some people just go through life and deal with shit. when I was little I would hear about kids committing suicide and I thought i'm glad i'll never be like those kids but…here we are..

Is it weird that I can't imagine life without mental illness
like, I don't understand how you go through life without wanting to…die?

Yeah…

I imagine it all of the time. I'm constantly wishing I had a life where I didn't have to deal with those thoughts that like to sneak up on me at the most inconvenient times.

Yeah
I'm getting meds soon, so that should help…
or make me want to comit…

I can't get any bc my parents (who are not psychologists/psychiatrists) believe there's nothing wrong with me and that I'm just an angsty teenager influenced by the internet
well surprise surprise I've been having these thoughts since I was around 10 or 11 and wasn't even allowed on the internet

Yeah, that's true…

Is it weird that I can't imagine life without mental illness
like, I don't understand how you go through life without wanting to…die?

Yeah…

I imagine it all of the time. I'm constantly wishing I had a life where I didn't have to deal with those thoughts that like to sneak up on me at the most inconvenient times.

Yeah
I'm getting meds soon, so that should help…
or make me want to comit…

I can't get any bc my parents (who are not psychologists/psychiatrists) believe there's nothing wrong with me and that I'm just an angsty teenager influenced by the internet
well surprise surprise I've been having these thoughts since I was around 10 or 11 and wasn't even allowed on the internet

It honestly baffles me that there are people in the world who don't live most of their days wanting to die, or just feeling empty or their guts not scrunching up when they're in public.and all
Just how are people able to dot hat

Maybe you guys aren't listening to me…

All you have to do is live for the good people in your lives… Live for your friends, your family (at least the good members) or your significant others… You can block out the sadness, anger, fear, depression, anxiety and lack of motivation by helping them deal with their problems… It's what I do… And it works…

Maybe you guys aren't listening to me…

All you have to do is live for the good people in your lives… Live for your friends, your family (at least the good members) or your significant others… You can block out the sadness, anger, fear, depression, anxiety and lack of motivation by helping them deal with their problems… It's what I do… And it works…

Shuri… I love you but what works for you won't work for everyone. I wish the sadness could be blocked out just because I'm living for the people I love. But all those feelings don't go away. It just forces me to stay here when the one thing I want most is to be gone.

Maybe you guys aren't listening to me…

All you have to do is live for the good people in your lives… Live for your friends, your family (at least the good members) or your significant others… You can block out the sadness, anger, fear, depression, anxiety and lack of motivation by helping them deal with their problems… It's what I do… And it works…

Shuri, I'm sorry to say this… But, your pretty much saying exactly what my parents say "Only you can make you happy." And that doesn't work. Sorry if I soudn rude but…

Maybe you guys aren't listening to me…

All you have to do is live for the good people in your lives… Live for your friends, your family (at least the good members) or your significant others… You can block out the sadness, anger, fear, depression, anxiety and lack of motivation by helping them deal with their problems… It's what I do… And it works…

Shuri, I'm sorry to say this… But, your pretty much saying exactly what my parents say "Only you can make you happy." And that doesn't work. Sorry if I soudn rude but…

Your parents are right in a way… the first step in true happiness is loving yourself and making yourself happy on your own, but sometimes that's the most difficult part.

Maybe you guys aren't listening to me…

All you have to do is live for the good people in your lives… Live for your friends, your family (at least the good members) or your significant others… You can block out the sadness, anger, fear, depression, anxiety and lack of motivation by helping them deal with their problems… It's what I do… And it works…

Shuri… I love you but what works for you won't work for everyone. I wish the sadness could be blocked out just because I'm living for the people I love. But all those feelings don't go away. It just forces me to stay here when the one thing I want most is to be gone.

I'm aware what works for me isn't for everyone… That's why I said it would help, not magically solve all your problems… I'm sure you know this, but leaving this world will cause the ones around you more and more pain each day… So please, let us try to help, and try to help others as well…

Maybe you guys aren't listening to me…

All you have to do is live for the good people in your lives… Live for your friends, your family (at least the good members) or your significant others… You can block out the sadness, anger, fear, depression, anxiety and lack of motivation by helping them deal with their problems… It's what I do… And it works…

Shuri, I'm sorry to say this… But, your pretty much saying exactly what my parents say "Only you can make you happy." And that doesn't work. Sorry if I soudn rude but…

You're fine you don't sound rude at all… What I said, was "living for others can help make you happy…" Although your parents are partially right… Not saying they're completely right at all

Maybe you guys aren't listening to me…

All you have to do is live for the good people in your lives… Live for your friends, your family (at least the good members) or your significant others… You can block out the sadness, anger, fear, depression, anxiety and lack of motivation by helping them deal with their problems… It's what I do… And it works…

Shuri… I love you but what works for you won't work for everyone. I wish the sadness could be blocked out just because I'm living for the people I love. But all those feelings don't go away. It just forces me to stay here when the one thing I want most is to be gone.

I'm aware what works for me isn't for everyone… That's why I said it would help, not magically solve all your problems… I'm sure you know this, but leaving this world will cause the ones around you more and more pain each day… So please, let us try to help, and try to help others as well…

I know it will cause people pain. That's the only reason I'm here. But that doesn't ease the pain at all, it makes it a lot worse.

Maybe you guys aren't listening to me…

All you have to do is live for the good people in your lives… Live for your friends, your family (at least the good members) or your significant others… You can block out the sadness, anger, fear, depression, anxiety and lack of motivation by helping them deal with their problems… It's what I do… And it works…

Shuri, I'm sorry to say this… But, your pretty much saying exactly what my parents say "Only you can make you happy." And that doesn't work. Sorry if I soudn rude but…

Your parents are right in a way… the first step in true happiness is loving yourself and making yourself happy on your own, but sometimes that's the most difficult part.

True.

Maybe you guys aren't listening to me…

All you have to do is live for the good people in your lives… Live for your friends, your family (at least the good members) or your significant others… You can block out the sadness, anger, fear, depression, anxiety and lack of motivation by helping them deal with their problems… It's what I do… And it works…

Shuri… I love you but what works for you won't work for everyone. I wish the sadness could be blocked out just because I'm living for the people I love. But all those feelings don't go away. It just forces me to stay here when the one thing I want most is to be gone.

I'm aware what works for me isn't for everyone… That's why I said it would help, not magically solve all your problems… I'm sure you know this, but leaving this world will cause the ones around you more and more pain each day… So please, let us try to help, and try to help others as well…

I know it will cause people pain. That's the only reason I'm here. But that doesn't ease the pain at all, it makes it a lot worse.

Why is that the case? You wanna tell me in PM?

Maybe you guys aren't listening to me…

All you have to do is live for the good people in your lives… Live for your friends, your family (at least the good members) or your significant others… You can block out the sadness, anger, fear, depression, anxiety and lack of motivation by helping them deal with their problems… It's what I do… And it works…

Shuri… I love you but what works for you won't work for everyone. I wish the sadness could be blocked out just because I'm living for the people I love. But all those feelings don't go away. It just forces me to stay here when the one thing I want most is to be gone.

I'm aware what works for me isn't for everyone… That's why I said it would help, not magically solve all your problems… I'm sure you know this, but leaving this world will cause the ones around you more and more pain each day… So please, let us try to help, and try to help others as well…

I know it will cause people pain. That's the only reason I'm here. But that doesn't ease the pain at all, it makes it a lot worse.

Why is that the case? You wanna tell me in PM?

No. Talking about it won't fix it. I'm really fucked up and right now, since I can't see a psychiatrist, I just have to accept it and try to live life as normally as I can.

Maybe you guys aren't listening to me…

All you have to do is live for the good people in your lives… Live for your friends, your family (at least the good members) or your significant others… You can block out the sadness, anger, fear, depression, anxiety and lack of motivation by helping them deal with their problems… It's what I do… And it works…

Shuri… I love you but what works for you won't work for everyone. I wish the sadness could be blocked out just because I'm living for the people I love. But all those feelings don't go away. It just forces me to stay here when the one thing I want most is to be gone.

I'm aware what works for me isn't for everyone… That's why I said it would help, not magically solve all your problems… I'm sure you know this, but leaving this world will cause the ones around you more and more pain each day… So please, let us try to help, and try to help others as well…

I know it will cause people pain. That's the only reason I'm here. But that doesn't ease the pain at all, it makes it a lot worse.

Why is that the case? You wanna tell me in PM?

No. Talking about it won't fix it. I'm really fucked up and right now, since I can't see a psychiatrist, I just have to accept it and try to live life as normally as I can.

That's not good reasoning Jensen… It will only fester if you bottle it up… It's better to release it by venting… So if you need, I'm here… But I won't force you…

and you know I exist for hugs if needed

even though I legit might fall asleep if I even stop moving for two seconds

I want death

and you know I exist for hugs if needed

even though I legit might fall asleep if I even stop moving for two seconds

hugs are constantly needed but I'm too afraid to ask for them or admit I need them
although I'm in pain currently so hugs would probably be a terrible idea lol

I want death

You want to talk about it in PM?

okay I shall hug when not in pain

Maybe you guys aren't listening to me…

All you have to do is live for the good people in your lives… Live for your friends, your family (at least the good members) or your significant others… You can block out the sadness, anger, fear, depression, anxiety and lack of motivation by helping them deal with their problems… It's what I do… And it works…

Shuri… I love you but what works for you won't work for everyone. I wish the sadness could be blocked out just because I'm living for the people I love. But all those feelings don't go away. It just forces me to stay here when the one thing I want most is to be gone.

I'm aware what works for me isn't for everyone… That's why I said it would help, not magically solve all your problems… I'm sure you know this, but leaving this world will cause the ones around you more and more pain each day… So please, let us try to help, and try to help others as well…

I know it will cause people pain. That's the only reason I'm here. But that doesn't ease the pain at all, it makes it a lot worse.

Why is that the case? You wanna tell me in PM?

No. Talking about it won't fix it. I'm really fucked up and right now, since I can't see a psychiatrist, I just have to accept it and try to live life as normally as I can.

That's not good reasoning Jensen… It will only fester if you bottle it up… It's better to release it by venting… So if you need, I'm here… But I won't force you…

Venting only helps me in certain situations. And sometimes what's on my mind is best left unsaid. But thank you for being here.