forum my anxiety/stress is killing me
Started by @mckapo
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i get worried about something, then my anxiety goes up, and then i get even more stressed, then more anxious, and it's a never ending cycle of torment.

@mckapo

ive always been the type to worry over everything and then I get constant anxiety attacks (like anxiety attacks is my normal day-to-day) and then I get the panic attacks.
right now, Im living paycheck to paycheck. my boyfriend has a good job, $18/hr, I have a decent job at $15/hr so together that's pretty good!
but, we have two kids, and we are supporting my boyfriend's mom, and his two brothers (one 27, the other 21, neither have ever lived on their own) the 21 yr old is a drunk idiot, and can't keep a job more than a few days.
we said $250/mo each [which is nothing when all of our household bills equal almost $2000/mo, and then my boyfriend and I have around $1700 of our own bills to pay every month, plus food for 5 adults, 2 babies….
exhausting…
my mind is going to explode because I have to max out my credit cards every month just to pay bills, and then break down and ask my dad to help (which makes me feel worthless)
and then over and over and over again.
thats my situation.
I feel like i am a bundle of supercharged anxiety nerves and one day i will implode.
and that will be the end of that