forum Loonelyyyyyy I am so looonelyyyyyy

Started June 17, 2019 by Deleted user

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I have already been awake for about 5 hours or so… anyway, what's up?

Just the fact that I can't go 5 minutes without a coughing fit….

:(

But on another note, I have roleplays that are open!

I just realised that we have mirrors in our bathroom… I was gone for two days and apparently my parents put them up without telling me

I just realised that we have mirrors in our bathroom… I was gone for two days and apparently my parents put them up without telling me

Okay then….

And I'm sad cause I wont have any wifi for three days so I wont be able to be online :(

Awwwww…. why?

I'm going to Värmdö where my family rented a house and apparently it has no wifi… so I'll just be stuck there with my family.

Oh….. sorry mate….

I guess it will be okay tho… we're gonna go swimming and stuff and the weather is supposed to be great… do you have any fun plans for the summer?

Not really…. (mostly cause my mom has a schedule that controls my life…)
I have a few youth things, but that's about it.

If you don't mind me asking… how does she control your life?

I have a big family, and my mom is a single parent.
Aside from the fact that I manage two houses, (my mom's, and my dad's, they live separately) my mom also schedules stuff months in advance, so there are events I don't know about, and my sisters have programs, for which I must often babysit, cause I'm the only babysitter.
All in all, I have to do a lot to keep things running, which leaves very little time for my extra curriculars once you take out time for school.
(It's bad enough that I actually will sit in the hallway after school doing homework cause I will not have time to do it at home.)
I have 2 extracurriculars, Cadets, and youth,
My sisters have:
Music lessons,
Choir,
Two separate youth programs
Baseball,
Swimming
Guides
Play dates
And feild trips which are a huge event cause my mom organizes group entry cause It's cheaper.

Oof… I guess it doesn't help to talk to her about it…?

Nope.
My mom is not easy to talk to about anything.
(Alsk take into account that she has threatened to pull me out of school, youth, and cadets, and delete my writing, all cause I apparently have an attitude problem.)
I've tried talking to her, at this point there's no use in doing so, cause I get shot down every time.
So now I just keep quiet and go with it, cause that's all I can do.

I can't say that I can completely relate to what you're going through, but my mom is pretty strict too in that way. I don't really have anything to do in the afternoons, but she doesn't want me to hang out at friends's place and stuff. I see my friends outside of school like, once a month when they see each other almost every day. My mom doesn't have a job, so she's at home all day taking care of our home and just waiting for me and my brother to come home. And she is definetly not easy to talk to, as soon as I try to argue with her she punishes me in some way.

All I can say for advice… either just ride it out until you can move out or just lie to her. Say that school gave you extra things to do or whatever so that you can do other stuff instead. I have tried to talk to other adults near me (relatives and friends) about how to make her less strict and so on, maybe that could work for you too?

I would do the lying thing, except for the fact that she pays attention to the emails she gets from school. Also I dont really have IRL friends to begin with, because we moved a lot when I was a kid, (about the same amount of times as I have years in my age.)
Also, lying to her will just get me in more trouble in the long run.
Plus I'm already hiding a lot from her, like my presence on the forums here…

What's really funny is my dad did say outright that my mom is overprotective.

I'm not supposed to be on the forums either… Oops.

XD….. I pass it off as writing advice…

I'm always scared that I'll unintentionally tell her… like the other day we were talking about motorbikes and I mentioned a bike that Shuri had told me about… she wondered how I knew about that bike and I almost told her until I remembered that I'm not supposed to talk about that lol

Oof… I'm always nervous that she might see one of the more sensitive Rps I have….

Oh, yeah. That would be… bad. Also my mom has also threathened with deleting my writing but I have saved it on multiple places mohaha I have an USB stick with all my writing that she doesn't even know about and all my documents have passwords…