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Right. so you probably don't know whats going on unless you're in the commentary scene of youtube, but I'm fucking stressing about the British Commentary Community and its fandom. I can't read the comments without stupid arguments about situations that were resolved months ago. For context, the YouTubers I'm specifically talking about are
-WillNE
-Memeuluos
-ImAllexx
-James Marriott
-INabber
like fucking hell. Why can't I just watch videos without feeling like I'm doing something wrong? Why all of a sudden does it feel weird wears Memeulous merch when I know he's done nothing wrong? I can't even like innocent people without seeing them being bad-mouthed and feeling like shit. I'm serious so stressed about this whole thing and I'm not even a part of it.
The biggest problem here is the Eboy ""controversy""
Basically, they've made a group channel and didn't invite INabber. Which, in itself, is kinda shallow, but not so bad. The problem stemmed from them being a group of 5, close-knit friends, only then for INabber to be excluded despite the fact a group channel was his idea. I want to believe it was some kind of mix up, but my gut tells me that some more is going on and I can't fucking take it. Is this what we get to add to the list of 2020 disaster? the Commentary Community spilt up because someone decided INabber wasn't worth being in that group for some reason.
I didn't really question INabber not being in the group at first. He didn't live in the same art of London and had turned down collab requests in the past due to personal stuff, so I supposed the same thing happened here, but then he goes on twitter to tell us that he didn't even know about the group till it was announced publicly.
There are so many ways this could have been avoided. I could list at least six ways this could have been solved with the stress and backlash, but I was publicized and now there's virtually no chance of this shit being resolved. It's happened before, ImAllexx has a reputation of not saying sorry and half-assing his attempts to reconcile friendships.
I'm not just worried about me or the Fandom either, I'm worried about the boys too.
Especially ImAllexx, INabber and Memeulous.
Alex has made mistakes, yes, and those mistakes shouldn't be sniffed at, but at the end of the day, he's just a fucking kid. he's young and impressionable and very clearly hard-headed. I don't think he goes out with the intention of hurting others, but he strikes as a very emotionally driven person who jumps to conclusions and says what's on his mind without thinking.
Memeulous (George) has me worried as well. I whole-heartedly believe he didn't have a say in it. He has been described as a quiet, lovely bloke who tends to stay away from most dramas. He's been roped into this so suddenly and I can't imagine the stress he's under. He very clearly has some sort of anxiety disorder, mostly social, so to be thrown out as a bad guy can't be doing well for him.
Oh fuck, don't get me started on why i'm worried about INabber (Frazer). I don't know if you've ever had your friends exclude you to go do fun things and go on to do a great thing, only for you to be left behind and discarded?
It fucking sucks.
Frazer stated very clearly that he saw them as a five. He felt left out often and almost inferior to the others. And then for them to move on to a new chapter without him makes me so fucking angry. I'm so upset about this shit. Everyones upset. any post that mentions the group channel is scattered with questions about Frazer and why he isn't in it. Then when I go to scroll down to see others opinions on the matter, its just people bad-mouthing them and call them snakes. I stress me out i can't even what a fucking S2W video from 3 years ago without feeling like im wrong for enjoying it! I genuinely love all five of them equally, and i so desperately want to believe that it wasn't done with malicious intent. I want it to be an accident. Why can't they just be like "Sorry, it was wrong of us to exclude you, would you like to join?"
What really got to me is what Frazer said about being "betrayed" by James, one of his best friends:
"James is my brother, and brothers fall out."
It's upset me so much and I don't know why. Why do i feel like this? Why do i sympathize with people i don't know, people who are supposed to be "evil".
I miss 2015 man. I can't take this shit anymore. I can't escape from the doctors and needles and medicine anymore without feeling like im doing the wrong thing. Please, i use these guys to forget about the world around me and just enjoy myself for about 13 minutes each day.
Why
Why can't I just succumb to my dumbass disease and just fucking die already??
Im so upset man why am i wired this way. I can't fucking take it.
