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Listen to me, to everyone who's replied, do NOT do anything rash.
Life fricking sucks. I know that as much as anyone. And I know what it's like to crave escape, to want to hurt yourself, or kill yourself, even, but please, friend PLEASE don't do it.

Look, I'm going to share with you a song that isn't officially released until tomorrow, so wait until you can hear it.
It was leaked a few days ago, so I can at least give you the lyrics… Take the time to read them, to understand them. To wait for the song to be released and listen to it while you read.

Here:
What’s my problem? Well, I want you to follow me down to the bottom
Underneath the insane asylum, keep your wits about you while you got ‘em,
‘Cause your wits are first to go while you’re problem solving
And my problem? We glorify those, even more, when they
My opinion
Our culture can treat a loss, like it’s a win and right before we turn on them
We give them the highest of praise, and hang their banner from a ceiling
Communicating, further engraving, an earlier grave is an optional way, no

Neon gravestones try to call
Neon gravestones try to call for my bones
Call
Call, call, call
Call
Call

What’s my problem? Don’t get it twisted, it’s with the people we praise who may have assisted
I could use the streams and extra conversations
I could give up, and boost up my reputation
I could go out with a bang
They would know my name
They would host and post a celebration
My opinion will not be lenient
My opinion, it’s real convenient
Our words are loud, but now I’m talking action
We don’t get enough love? Well they get a fraction
They say ‘How could he go if he’s got everything?’
I’ll mourn for a kid, but won’t cry for a king

Neon gravestones try to call
Neon gravestones try to call for my bones
Call
Call, call, call

Promise me this, if I lose to myself,
You won’t mourn a day, and you’ll move onto someone else
Promise me this, if I lose to myself
You won’t mourn a day, and you’ll move onto someone else

Neon gravestones try to call
Neon gravestones try to call for my bones
Neon gravestones try to call
Neon gravestones try to call for my bones

But they won’t get them
No, they won’t get them
They won’t get them
But they won’t get them

Don’t get me wrong, the rise in awareness
Is beating a stigma, that no longer scares us
But for sake of discussion, in spirit of fairness
Could we give this some room for a new point of view?
And, could it be true that some could be tempted
To use this mistake as a form of aggression?
A form of succession? A form of a weapon?
Thinking “I’ll teach them”, well, I’m refusing the lesson
It won’t resonate in our minds
I’m not disrespecting what was left behind, just pleading that “it” does not get glorified
Maybe we swap out what it is that we hold so high
Find your grandparents or someone of age
Pay some respects for the path that they paved
To life, they were dedicated
Now, that should be celebrated

The song is called Neon Gravestones. It's by Twenty One Pilots, a band that raises awareness of mental illnesses and suicide, and pleads with people not to end their lives. They help me cope, and they help me calm down and discourage me from harming myself, or worse.

Wait until it comes out. It's worth it. KEEP finding things that are worth it.

Stay alive to see tomorrow, because the sun will rise, and we can try again. Each day is different and as cliche and crappy as that sounds, it's fricking true.

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October 04, 2018

@Low_Mein

October 04, 2018

As stupid as life really is, it's not worth ending everything. You have so many people that love you and will hurt so very much if you take your life away from me. Like @Trash for instance. She's my cousin. We talk together all the time because we never have anyone else to vent to. We love Twenty One Pilots because they help us cope with our problems. I'm sure at least most people that have an actual life have pondered suicide or self harm, but trust me, it is definitely not the way to go. People still love you. People still care. People can be very awful and crude sometimes, but there is always a way to cope and take your mind off of the bad things in life. Me, my cousin, and many more people including yourself have gone through so much in our life. I don't even know you guys, but I still have empathy because I understand how hard decisions like that can be. Please do not harm yourself. By harming yourself you will transfer that harm to so many more people, and then they could become very insecure and think differently about themselves. People still love you and will always care, no matter how your life is going. Please, fren, Stay Alive. <3

@Low_Mein

October 04, 2018

I prefer listening to music, playing a video game, or just giving a family member or close friend a hug. Those kind of things are what drag me away from the horrible truths of life. Stay Alive, and do your best <3

@houdini

October 04, 2018

Maybe be angry at someone. If you have someone to blame other than yourself, maybe you'll be less harmful to yourself. Be angry at ME, for not leaving you alone when you want to leave.

I've got troubled thoughts
And the self-esteem to match
What a catch, what a catch

You WILL be okay, eventually. If you ever need a friend, just reach out to me.

Deleted user

October 04, 2018

never thought that i’d be broken
never thought i’d be this far from home
i’m dreamin with my eyes wide open now
if only i could hit the ground

@houdini

October 04, 2018

My cousin's right. Distract yourself from life, but not in a way that's harmful. Read, watch a show, listen to music, draw, write, go outside and breathe fresh air, play a video game… But don't let them become a black hole of an escape that you can't…escape from. Stay safe, and stay alive. If listening to Bieber helps, do it.

Just please, please don't take your life away from me, or anyone for that matter.

Don't be known for a permanent mistake you made. Better to not be know at all than to be known for that. Don't let the neon gravestones get your bones.