forum ✨dRaMaTiC✨ Insults, Power of the Chancla, Eldritch Beings, Old Rivalries, Chicken Chaos, Large Fonts, and Cheesecake: The Saga of the Chicken Part 3: Tokyo Drift (CLOSED)

Started September 03, 2023 by @Morals-are-for-mortals language

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Welp. Just was removed as a contributor from Echo’s universe
Love being reminded that I’ll probably never see her again ☺️ (I’m on the verge of tears)

Oh my?

Why was their drama during my 6 month hiatus /persona hyperfixation

Oh yeah echo fuckin died (fell off the face of the internet bc she had an identity crisis)

To put it in simple words
I’m a bit bitter about it but honestly I was just severely depressed for a while afterwards

something is very wrong with me- every day I'm literally exhausted to where I just sleep during my first half of the day (unless I'm somehow able to keep myself awake). but today I was so tired that I was stumbling and could barely even move my hand to pet the dog in my class. ;-;

I had the same thing happen to me and I experienced violent mood swings from one end of the spectrum to the other. Like really happy and bubbly, and then like really low lows. If you can, I'd go to a doctor specifically for hormonal imbalances. One overproduction of one hormone can quite literally exhaust the other hormone, and you feel it, because it takes the toll on you. You can try to change the way you eat food, and focus on higher protein and foods higher in what you need to function, (which is currently a mystery) But I understand what you're going through.

thx. ngl I haven't been taking care of myself recently which is already bad. I hardly ate supper last night, slept for 2 hours last night, haven't brushed my teeth since Saturday and haven't taken a shower since Saturday. ik im suffering from my disorders but I have no Medicaid to cover meds and therapy, so I'm forced to suffer.

Let me ask you this: What can you do for yourself, right now, to improve your situation? How can you take care of yourself better, to manage to get through until you can get more long term help? You're a smart human, you have a brain. Disorders do limit you, but they do not define you. People are resilient. Start with the small things. Or use a sticker chart. Reward yourself for the small things. You have a strong community here that can help. You got this.

HAH I've been trying. I have 3 self care apps on my phone, a anxiety journal that is therapy grade material my case worker got, and I've been tryna distract myself with things that make me feel better. but even then it doesn't seem to be helping when every time I feel a little better, some shit happens and tears it all down. I spent the WHOLE weekend with Rhys thinking it'll releave some painful stress. it kinda did until it didn't. I'm still in pain, still trembling from fear, and feeling sick as a dog both mentally and physically. the pain I feel in my shoulders, neck and back is like I'm being crushed. I tried getting help. and now I have hospital bills because my Medicaid got cut off. election day is threatening my safety. I'm already fleeing abuse. I'm tryna not die by my OWN hands. I don't think any ammount of anxiety breathing is gonna help that.

It's not anxiety breathing. You may not be in control of your situations, and that really really really stinks. But you are still you, and you are still strong. That hasn't changed. You've gotten this far, because you did it. You may have had some help from outside sources, but you did it regardless. I'm not diminishing your pain, or your struggle, because a majority of people here have had their own struggles too. The best advice that I was given by a professional, and this may not work for you, but it worked for me, was that I have every tool inside my head for survival. Basic survival. It's up to me how I use it, but the only thing that I had to promise was that if I was knocked down, I had to get up and keep going. Stopping right now, is not an option, and the light at the end of that metaphorical tunnel may not even be there for you to see, but hope still perseveres in this dark world. We would have never gotten this far without it. It's admirable that you've made it this far. Keep on keeping on, because even if you don't see it, our worlds here, in Notebook, are a little brighter because you're here too.

thank you. I'm sorry and i'll shut up now.

You have nothing to apologize for. You said your piece and vented your frustrations. That’s completely valid homie. Don’t be afraid to stand up for yourself and let your voice be heard! There’s no shame in it. I’m proud of ya for telling me how you feel. You can always dm me if you need to vent. That’s what a good portion of us are here for homie!

online hugs well same for you. I'ma at least try to be around for anyone who needs me.

That’s a good attitude to have!

I meant literally like I'm here if u guys need me but yeah also that pff

Indeed