it has been 5 minutes and she has not responded
I regret so much
but I also regret nothing lol
but uh seriously
why do I always get crushes on the most inopportune ppl?
crush 1 (but not in order of date lol): actually happened when I was an emotional mess and he had told me that he liked me a few months ago and then in the "present" I had just lost my best friend and was lonely and emotionally desperate for connection and when I told him, he was like… sorry, don't think of you that way…. like boi??
crush 2: uh long story short dated my best friend instead of me bc she suddenly became available and I wasn't old enough to date yet but you know there's a whole lotta other crap with him too maybe I'll tell you one day
crush 3: actually lowkey worked out? I dated him for a bit (twice, actually…) junior year for a month but I was emotionally unstable and just couldn't so I had to break it off, and then again senior year (like 3 months this time wow), but it was right after I figured out that I was bi (didn't know I was ace yet but was considering it) but again broke it off bc I was kinda a mess and needed to figure myself out but I also lowkey regret doing that I could've handled it way better
crush 4: jessy, who is like…. the most intense??? and my best friend??? but like totally blind
it's been 10 minutes now
and now you've all gotten a sneak peek of my Tragic Backstory(TM)
nice
well crap
I'm gonna go to sleep lol cause the only other ppl on Notebook are a few rp-ers
but like
phone volume on so I hear if she texts back lol
wow this is gonna be fun
WAIT DID I MISS SOMETHING
THIS ISN'T AN LOL SITUATION TYTY
ITS THE CUTEST KITTEN EVER 🐱
YAAAASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!
In all seriousness Collin and I are getting a kitten
Oh great that's what we really needed
more cuteness added to an already cute situation
WAIT DID I MISS SOMETHING
yes lol
I started a Conversation with Jess to try and figure out if she even wants a gf
but uh
she didn't follow the script I had laid out in my head
picking up from the last text last night (go back a page or two to read them all lol)
the last text I sent was "I'm serious" which was an auto-reply that my phone suggested. But I actually meant to send the one next to it, which was "lol," but I didn't bother to correct it cause like… I kinda wanted to see how she'd react?
so after 20 minutes with no reply, I sent her a text like
"I was kinda wondering why you hadn't texted back so I came to see if I just missed a notification but it actually looks like I sent the wrong text lol. I used on of the auto-suggested replies, and I meant to send "lol" but I tapped the wrong one
Sometimes the suggestions are weird. Like how it always suggests "I miss you" when you say ily"
that last bit was another ball I put up in the air (bc I told her that my phone suggested that and she was like… your phone is homophobic so I was hoping she'd pick that ball up and then I could try and twist that into the Conversation I actually wanted to have lol)
anyways
J: yeah I wasn't sure how to respond to I'm serious
Me: yeah lol sorry
I'll try to refrain from using the autoreply, or at least double check that I sent the right one
heart emoji
then like 20 more minutes later I had just fallen asleep but I hadn't silenced my phone so this convo woke me up
J: now I wanna draw but I'm in bed lol
K: me too lol I forgot to silence my phone
draw sam
going back to sleep now
J: I'm in bed lol
K: me too
J: also sorry if I woke you up (these texts were being exchanged quickly so like she prob didn't see my going back to sleep now text before she typed this one)
OOF
gn
K: do it anyways
it's okay ily gn
J: ily
if you want all the background, there's a lil on 75, not really anything on 76, but 78 has a lot
see but like
denisse and I are pretty sure she's just blind
